Tuesday, February 28, 2006 || I'm starting with the woman in the mirror!
- My cousin bought me a damn nice and chun black dress from SG.
When she gave it to me, she asked me whether she thought that it'd fit me.
Seeing that my cousin tried it herself before giving it to me, and it fits her, since she's shorter and slightly plumper than me, I automatically thought that it'd fit me as well.
So when I tried it on just now, it easily slipped up my body and it fit perfectly. But the zip wouldn't close it around my chest WTF is that?!?!?!
WTFWTFWTFWTFWTF@$#$#%#$
I called my cousin and told her that it wouldn't fit. "Errr ... it won't fit around my chest lah.", I told her.
She laughed. "I should've guessed, your boobs are bigger wat. Er, give it to any good friend of yours then, I won't be coming back to KL anytime soon..."
*fumes* I AM NOT HAPPY.
Who's smaller-sized than me and wants a nice black dress? :'(
I want it to be quick and less painful. =( Since it's so nice, I think that I'll give it to Cally or Suet, but Suet's pissed at me at the moment and Cally already has one that looks sort of like it.
*binds boobs*
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I've decided to make my way back to a healthy and normal lifestyle!
The thing is, ever since my holidays started, I've been doing nuts and have been living an extremely abnormal lifestyle.
- I sleep at 4 a.m
- I wake up at 2 p.m
- I eat supper
- I eat a LOT
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- I hang out with other greedy gluttons
....... Suffice to say, I am not exactly in top form right now. But it's okay, that's all gonna change! :D
I SWEAR I will:
- Sleep earlier. :(
- Wake up earlier. :'(
- Eat less. (Meaning, I will still eat alot, but I will cut down on junk food and shit :p)
- Exercise everyday. Yes, Liz, don't slack!
- Lose 3kg.
WAHAHA. I swear, I doubt that I'll be able to achieve anything on that list. Anyway, I only want to lose three kg, because I refuse to think of myself as Fat. Think what you like, I don't care, I'm not fat lalala ~
But I have flabby arms and a trace of a tummy already. A few months ago, my tummy was quite flat, and I want to get back to that.
As you can see, my legs aren't really fat, so I'll leave 'em alone for now. My ass is big, but that's okay, I like it.
So, the two essential parts:
I CAN DO IT. Come on Liz, you want that Beyonce body riiiiiiight?!?
"I'm sooo gonna lose all the excess fat! Then I will be, like, gorgeous bahahaha." (me, duh)
"Really? Let's go to California Fitness lah! By the way, don't tell XXX about our 'health plan' okay?"
Me: "Why not?"
"... Don't let other people be inspired, we become hot ourselves enough already HAHAHA"
SORRY pal, but I'm sorta announcing it to the world anyway. At least to whatever that's left of my imaginary readers of this beloved blog of mine. *wipes tear*
Anyway, don't worry, this will probably be the last post regarding my sudden inspiration to become thinner. I'm not that type of obsessive girl.
... Chances are, I'll look into the mirror tomorrow and find myself perfect the way I am, which will crush the whole 'plan' anyway. -_-
'If you wanna make the world a better place, just take a look at yourself and make a change ...'
*grunts*
Monday, February 27, 2006 || Fatness.
- I played snooker with Jaclyn, Cally and Nicholas today. It was fun, though we spent close to two hours to finish ONE game.
That's what happens when everybody sucks the same at the game. :p
I came home in the evening, and I decided to take a stroll around my neighbourhood to check out if there were any vacancies available. I was right; my neighbourhood is cool but damn ulu ... so no vacancies.
I bumped into one of my "childhood" friends. Ah ... about until two years ago, I used to go cycling everyday around my area. And I made friends with other people who cycled as well; so the bunch of us'd cycle around together. Of course, I stopped cycling almost two years ago. (Mainly because my bicycle spoilt, and I was too lazy to repair it.)
So anyway, bumped into this dude just now. And we chatted for a bit, for old time's sake. =P
"So what you doing nowadays la?"
Me: "Waiting for results ... and looking for job. Seriously la, long time no see!"
"Ya lah. You look different lah ... you look better now, but did you get fatter?"
Me: "Cannot compare with last time weeeiiii, I was soooo thin back then."
"HAHAHA! Never mind lah, can still lose weight wat."
Me: "WTF?!"
Shit lah these people. Do I need to be reminded that I put on weight? HUH?
Do you even know what it feels like to have a big big tub of chocolate fudge ICE CREAM in the fridge ... and yet, you know that you SHOULD NOT eat it?!
Talk about mental torture man. I think that if I over-eat one day, I'll put on an extra KG (or two). But for most guys, even if they stuff themselves with chocolate, they still hardly put on weight. Those that are skinny seem to be perpetually skinny. =(
I don't like following the masses. Why must I succumb to peer pressure (actually, most of my friends also not thaaat slim, so I guess this isn't really counted, heh) and the world's view of beauty?! As long as I think that I LOOK GOOD, RIGHT?
But anyway, if I had a choice (and more determination), I wish I could be of ideal weight.
Not lemme show you what I personally think is The Ideal body.
Take specimen 1, for example.Britney Spears, famous pop star and household name.
But WTH happened to her, man? Is it because of the pregnancy? =(
Actually, she's not thaaaat fat here, but the thing is, she's terribly flabby.
Flabby flesh = NOT ideal.
Anyway, her left boob seems a lot bigger than her right. hahaha
Specimen # 2: Jennifer Love Hewitt
I like her, but I think she's too thin. Skinny until no chest already.
Not chun lah.
NOW THIS IS THE IDEAL WEIGHT! Fat at the right places, yet firm and not flabby at all. So proportioned, arms not too big and no protuding tummy. Sexy, even.
Or maybe I'm just biased, cause I really like Beyonce. I think she's gorgeous, though everybody says she's overrated and bla bla.
YESH! TIME TO GO GYM, LIZ!
Actually, my friend has been pestering me to head for California Fitness with her, but I am just so lazy.
Is being slim and sexy so worth it?!?!?!
*looks at self*
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*looks at Beyonce pic*
... OKAY! Time to hit the gym, baby!
Sunday, February 26, 2006 || Hypocritical or merely me?
- I hate shopping.
Do you know how much it hurts to not have a lot of money, and all you can do is watch your friends splurge on stupid, unnecessary stuff like make-up and clothes?
... I hate shopping. And I hate window-shopping.
And dammit, I just made an amazing discovery: Franz Ferdinand. They sort of remind me of The Beatles! (Though to compare FF with the godliness of Beatles would be sorta sinful...)
Anyway, short and unnecessary post today. I think that I'm sort of worn out (blogging) already, I need some sense of rejuvenation.
I think that I'm so contradictory. I think that I'm a good girl ... yet in the eyes of many, I'm pretty damn bad. I'm a Christian ... yet I indulge in a lot of not-very-Christian stuff. I like uh, Michael Buble ... and I also like Marilyn Manson (some of his songs aren't half bad).
Which, I don't know whether it's a good or a bad thing. Sometimes, I think that I'm too fakely versatile. If an ultra good Christian dude told me that sex and masturbation is, like, taboo, I would probably happily agree with him. But when I found out that 7/10 of my friends watch porn (Erm, actually, for girls, most of them only watch cuz got nothing better to do... as for guys, no comments.), I wasn't even surprised nor did I try to chastise them. Not that I think it's evil or anything.
Not a lot, but some people call me Liz ... therefore I am often linked to Lizards and shit. But seriously, they're better off comparing me to chameleons. Tsk.
Interesting lessons of life, indeed. Not that I'm planning to change, cause I'm perfect the way I am, but it's good to really know the kind of person you are. I think that my weaknesses > my strengths ... but I'm sneaky; I never flaunt my weaknesses. :p
That's why I think I have the capacity to seriously surprise the pants off people. Cause seriously, I think only what, 5 people REALLY know the real me.
So I'm thinking; is it better to hide or to flaunt your flaws? You know, if you hide your flaws well enough, people might not even notice it ... but if you hide it too much, when people do find out the ugly truth, they'd freak out and pee in their pants.
... Both also quite bad ya. -_-
Friday, February 24, 2006 || Case of a goddess.
- I have a friend, let's call her the Goddess. In all honesty, she is possibly one of the prettiest girls I've ever had the pleasure to meet in my entire life. And believe me, coming from a pathetic all-girls school, I've definitely seen my share.
We are not exactly best friends, but we've been running around in the same circles ever since form 1, and we're pretty good friends. She is like, the epitome of Ms Perfect, cause she studies hard, has never uttered a SINGLE cuss word in her entire life, and is polite and courteous to basically everybody. And everytime I would accidentally (or not) curse, she would widen her big big eyes and stare at me dubiously that'd make me feel so evil enough to apologize. She's so innocent and good that guys and girls alike would NEVER wanna be caught dead holding a porno DVD in front of her, because she'd likely shriek, freak out, and make you feel so guilty you'll almost feel like grabbing a star from the sky to make her feel better and smile again. Yup, that good.
Anyway, my friend and I were doing a head-count just now. And there are at least ten guys that are battling each other, and racing against time, for her heart right now. AT LEAST.
Of course, that's to be expected. If I was male myself, I would be pretty smittened by her, though I doubt that she's my type. (I like Angelina Jolie more than, hmm, Gywneth Paltrow. heh. Bad girls rule! ... yeah right.)
Because my friend, the Goddess, and I are somewhat running in the same circle of friends (though we have other friends outside of it), we've realized that about 40% of the guys that we're both friends with are madly in love/lust with the Goddess.
20% of the dudes are already taken. And the remaining 40% are, uh, different.
...WHICH MEANS THAT THERE ARE PRACTICALLY NO ELIGIBLE BACHELORS AROUND FOR US ANYMORE! Nada, nil, zilch!
Even though we're not remotely impressed by any of those dudes ... but still. The possibility of having NO available members of the opposite sex around is terrifying, if not slightly intriguing.
There is this concert that we're all probably gonna attend in March. The goddess, said friend, and I will all be there. The main reason the Friend is going is because the love of her life, the only male creature on earth who makes her hurt go 'thumpity-thump', will be present as well.
"So what will you do if Mr. "Right" suddenly finds himself so smittened by the Goddess, and decides to go for her, since he doesn't even know that you're interested in him?", I curiously asked. Well hey, it wouldn't be surprising.
She answered triumphantly, "Welllllllll, remember W? (... One of the #1_ competitors racing for the Goddess) I've already told him to be there. So he'll occupy Goddess lah!"
"That doesn't mean Mr "Right" isn't gonna be mesmerized by her you know ... ", I cheekily reminded her. Only to aggravate her and make her worry more.
But as it turns out, Friend already had it all planned out in advance.
"Hahaha, I've already reconsidered it. What, you think I'm stupid? Anywaaaaaay ... W is interested in Goddess. And W is Mr "Right"'s best friend. You think those two best friends are gonna fight over the Goddess? I know Mr Right, he's too nice to do that!"
Interesting, I thought. "You proved me wrong, girl."
"How?"
"It seems like I'm not exactly the most manipulative person on earth", I told her.
... Seriously, the things people do to get a guy/girl. Personally, I would never put in more effort than merely SMSing or calling some dude to capture his heart.
I salute you people. Really. =/
Thursday, February 23, 2006 || My stupid big fat mouth.
- Guess what your lovely blogger did today?
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She visited the library. -_-
I finally have new books to read!
Oh gosh, the weather was so bloody HOT today. Damn you, Eu Jin, you get to live in a much nicer climate now. I wanted to go swimming in my friend's condo, but I decided against it cause I've just realized that I'm a bit too tan already. So I visited the library to get some new books.
I went for dinner with a friend in the evening. I think I nearly got my ass busted by a huge black woman, because she accidentally tripped over her ass, and I choked on my drink and laughed my ass off.
(I KNOW LAH I'm mean. I have a big, fat, CB mouth. But actually, it wasn't so much of the woman falling, it was my friend's comment that made me laugh. I'm evil. But that shouldn't be news to most of you guys. :p)
... She then glared at me with big big angry eyes. @____@ And I thought she was gonna punch me, heh. Despite weighing quite a lot myself, I have no martial arts training, thus I would be, like, dead.
I came home and watched American Idol. Okay okay, that show is just some commercialized crap, but I like watching it. Fun for the family, yo! ... I really liked one of the girls who looked like Kirsten Durst. Sooo cute ah.
(And I spotted a male cutie contestant too. )
I seriously don't get it. It is just SO WRONG to say something like "I seriously have a good heart" in front of millions of people. I mean, yeah, you're supposed to try to convince people to vote for you ... but wtf??
Narcissism is a good thing. But uh.
I should SOOOO join Malaysian Idol man. I would sweep the other contestants aside, though my inability to sing in tune would be a slight problem .......... Heh heh heh.
Hmph. Seriously, ever since I stopped bringing my camera with me wherever I go, I seem to lack good blogging materials. =X I sound so repetitive and boring already, ya? =(
B-bu-but... All my friends hated it when I took my camera everywhere, cause they were all afraid that I would take ugly pics of them and post it on my blog.
*snorts*
OKAY, I have decided to read those two new books I just got today. And I will later post reviews of them. ^_^
WTF. My blog is gonna become boring like shit soon.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006 || I don't like FFk-ers.
- -_- I swear, I think I'm damn unstable. One day I'm moody, thriving in solitude and nature --- the next, I'm all energetic and dying for human company. =D
The latter is what happened to me today. I woke up extremely early (I swear, anything before 11 is EARLY in my books.) ... feeling completely rejuvenated and surprisingly cheerful, after yesterday's episode. I made plans with a friend late yesterday night to catch a movie today, but the ass SMSed me at 11.30, going;
Hey ... tomorrow only we go okay? I wanna sleep until at least 2 pm today. =(
@!@!#@#@$
Then I proceeded to sms another friend to ask her out for lunch. She wasn't much help either.
Hehe ... tomorrow lah. Today my Boo Boo is free, he's taking me out on a date. =)
THE PAIN THAT STABS THROUGH MY HEART. *faints* I was SO tempted to reply with something sarcastic like "Wtf is a Boo Boo? A new range of soft toys I didn't hear about? :-O", but of course, the angel that resides within me stopped me. =)
... So I ended up going back to sleep. LOL.
I woke up at 3 something, cause I received a SMS from Jaclyn. My ringtone happened to be bloody loud.
(My SMSes are blue, Jac's are pink.)
I'm back from school. Later wanna go eat dinner?
Now lah. What later
I wanna sleep first. 4 o'clock we go k ...
*fast forward time to 4 o'clock*
I woke up feeling blur, sleepy and slightly high in the head.
Mali mali HOM! Wake up, asshole! (HAHA, I know I know, I'm funny.)
Oh God ... you are so lame ... I will wear my clothes now then can go edi. You too k
Okay. I shall put my wand aside 'N put on my wiz robes. After that, I will cast level 3 transformation and transform myself into the beautiful Eliza Lee. I will also have to cast level 9 heal for the bruises from the fights I had with the thugs last night when I rescued the old lady.
I see. Pls take your time. I fell on my bed. Now I'm trapped! My bed doesn't want to let me go! I feel like I'm being eaten ... AH!!
I quickly finish my spells. As I walked out of my house, a level 3 orange rabbit ambushed me! I had to cast level 8 Punch to destroy it, and now its corpse is lying in front of me! I am king! Mwahahaha
...... Fren, dis is not a who-is-lamer contest. Go change ur clothes n faster come.
Okay. I will fullfill my destiny of coming to your rescue as we dine in OUG. As prophecized in the sacred books.
OMG. ENOUGH!
Hehehe okay lah. I'm on my way ...
...................... APPARENTLY, all those adolescent years which I blissfully spent playing stupid RPGs has affected me in more ways than one.
I am feeling sleepy, hungry, smirk-y, holy, horny, pretty, tipsy, petty and funny. Today was good. Cally was sexy.
Nah, just kidding. Am not thinking straight. =D
Heh, I just tried unblocking all the dumbos I blocked throughout the years. Unfortunately, my goodness lasted for less than half-an-hour, after some ignorant dude kept on bugging me about my nickname (....Which was, Baby, I love you to want me), tried forcing me to play O2jam (*smacks forehead*) and attempted to ask me for my number.
Wtf. My path to redemption and goodness is still far far away. Tsk tsk.
*grunts*
By the way, who ever knew Wild Things was a porno-ish movie? I thought it was supposed to be a psychological thriller, okay! ... Stupid friend recommended it to me. And there were lesbian scenes, threesomes and all.
... Plus the main guy character was sooooooo annoying ah. Denise Richards is hot though. @_o
...... *goes watch Saw again*
People, lend/recommend me good shows! My friends are all out of good movies already, since I took almost everything they had. HAHA.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006 || When Liz is RESTLESS, it is never a pretty picture.
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I have never felt this restless and bored for a very, very long time. This restless feeling in your gut that makes you feel jittery and hyper all over. It's like an itch you can't stop scratching .... A zit you can't stop popping. *don't mind the lame MTV pun*
Today was horrible. I swear, I was so restless and bored, I probably would've gone out to dinner with a rapist if he asked me nicely.
I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!
I don't know how you guys can do it. When life gets soooo repetitive and routine ... how can you still go along with it? =(
... Okay, now that is my biggest weakness in life. I can't stand routine. Everytime my life gets boring and repetitive, I absolutely HAVE to do something about it to change it. I'm gonna take my music diploma lessons soon ... but still!
What do I need to do to get out of this ... this ... mental TRAP? Date any asshole so that at least life will be a bit different then?
Go clubbing?? (.. but it's not my kinda thing =( ) Take up smoking?!? (... Nonono. No way.) Take a few days off and hitch-hike around town aimlessly???
Walk up to any stranger and kiss him squarely on the lips just to see what happens?!
:( I haven't felt this down in a very long time.
Now I know how bloody annoying I must be to chat with. I mean, seriously, most of the time, my status is 'busy', 'away' or appear offline. And half the time I'm online, I'm not even at my comp, thus I don't really reply people that much, so I unintentionally cut off a lot of people who're chatting with me. =(
But today, cause I was feeling so bored and sullen, I changed my status to online and chatted with people I haven't chatted with in some time. And when some of them took their own sweet time in replying me, I got sooooo annoyed.
Hehe, I'm sorry peeps! Now I know how annoying I am. =( I WILL CHANGE. Yeah right.
I gave up chatting after awhile. Because I was feeling so down, I went out for a long long walk after it rained. I love the weather now, the air feels so cool and fresh. :D I wanted to bring Fifi along, but I decided against it cause she doesn't really like walking around in public. Plus the rain just stopped, and it was already pretty late.
I like my neighbourhood. Sometimes. Just now, when I was sullenly walking to the nearby 7-11, a bloody van freaking stopped beside me, and the driver SCREAMED "BOO!!!!!" at me. I SWEAR, THE EXACT WORD. I was so shocked, I stopped and yelped "WTF!!!!!!!". -_- I swear, I was seriously shocked out of my wits, I thought I was gonna die of my heart attack.
Bear in mind that I spent the whole day watching Saw 1 and 2, thus the paranoia was still fresh in my mind.
These people should die. Just die. Screaming at an innocent, pissed-looking girl walking alone in the dark is NOT FUNNY, YOU ASSHOLE. Whoever you are.
After the asshole incident, I quickly headed back for my apartment, and I resorted to moping on the garden swings, SMSing people that I thought would cheer me up. Hoho, but it seems like everybody is having bad days, and one of my good friends who recently broke up with her bf (I smsed her cause I thought she wouldn't sound happy-go-lucky and could rant bersama-sama aku -_-) informed me that she already has a new bf.
Someone buy a cake and smash it into my face, please.
When I finally came home, having decided that the night view wasn't really that nice after all, my family members were all in the hall waiting for me.
Mum: "Where were you?"
Me: "...... I told you I was going out for a walk!"
Uncle: "Hoho ... Surely go find boyfriend secretly lah."
Me: "..................... Hm." (I was in a bad mood! =S)
Sister: "Yeah. She definitely has a boyfriend already, look at her face. When I was your age also I used to sneak out to meet guys what."
Me: "Hmph." (... HAHA, apparently, a bad mood doesn't exactly do much for my wits)
Dad: "You are too young to date! *lecture lecture*"
Mum: "Don't listen to your dad, it's okay wan. But he has to be christian, not too young, bla bla .."
Me: "OH MY GOD. ENOUGH LA YOU PEOPLE. ARRRRRRRRRR !@!#@!@"
Sis: "Hah. Interesting."
................. My family is hopeless. I only spent one full day at home, and there are already cuckoo-birds flying around in my brains. -_____-
I vow to do SOMETHING different in my life. Meet new people. Go out more. Visit the library more often. (?!?!) Stop talking to happy cute-cute people. Change my fashion style to goth.
........
I think that for once in my life, I need some beer. -_-
SOMEBODY SAVE ME FROM THIS BORING ROUTINE! I need a change, yo!
... Or soon I will be blogging from a mental asylum. Tanjung Rambutan, perhaps. =(
Edited: My ass is literally aching from sitting on the comp for five hours straight. Woo-hoo, I own.
- What would you do if you were kidnapped and left in a room to die ...
... and the only way out of the room is the key inside your boyfriend/girlfriend's stomach?
WOULD YOU KILL HIM TO SURVIVE?!
....... What if you were tied to a pole with chains on your leg ... and knowing that your time is limited, and the only way to get out would be to saw off your leg ... would you do it to stay alive?!
HOLY FUXING COW.
....... don't watch Saw. Bloody gory shit, man.
(though I was inexplicably stupid to watch Saw 2 before Saw 1, thus I already knew who the psychopath maniac murderer was)
*lalalala think happy thoughts ... Notting Hill! Cookies and Cream ice cream! GTA!! Cute guys!! Fifi ... lalala*
Anyway, I thought the show was pretty good for its genre. Shit man, the idea of a psychopath maniac killer named Jigsaw who doesn't actually kill people, but design them to kill themselves is damn gory. Plus the maniac was only doing it to chosen victims who don't appreciate life.
I get so freaked out and scared after watching horror/gory/bloody movies, but I still like watching them. =(((( I even wanted to go watch The Descent by myself okay! (cause none of my friends had balls to watch it, though it isn't even supposed to be scary -_-)
Final Destination 3 is coming out soon! I MUST WATCH! Though I didn't find part 1 and 2 scary at all ........
People, recommend me scary movies! I like to freak myself out silly. And since I still have time before my stupid results are out, I wanna watch as many movies as I can.
(cause when I do get my results, I'll probably be grounded)
My gosh, the images of the dude sawing off his own leg to escape is still engraved in my brain. O__O
Monday, February 20, 2006 || Sometimes, it rocks to be a girl.
- Listening to: Body Rockers - I like the way you move
... Doesn't it feel damn good to bust the balls off the cops on GTA? Bloody surreal and fun okay! ... Hehe, I finally found the cash to buy a new controller for Bay-bee #3. FINALLY I get to play all the games I left hanging!
Had lunch with my youth leader (good friend too) today. I swear, I've just realized how hard is it to control my stupid mouth in front of 'good' people. When I called Jaclyn "stupid asshole", everybody at the table stared at me dubiously, Jaclyn inclusive.
You suck, Jac. =(
Anyway, as per Lilian's advice, I've tried to negotiate with my dad to get him to give me a monthly allowance instead of a daily/weekly one.
Dad: "What do you want?"
Me: "Can gimme my allowance monthly instead of weekly ar? =)"
Dad: "Nope."
Me: "...... But I need to learn how to manage my own cash ... yada yada.... bullshit bullshit ...."
Dad: "Okay. I'll give you RM100 per month."
Me: !!! "I'll die wei!"
Dad: "I don't care."
And after arguing, rolling my eyes, and hissing for quite some time, I remembered a very important factor that I didn't consider before that.
I am a girl. Their "baby daughter". *rolls eyes*
... Then I turned on my VERY VERY VERY rare 'girly' mode.
Me: "Daddddddyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ..... =( Don't so bad arrrrr ... You want your cute daughter to starve meh?!? Cannot lah!"
Dad: *frowns* "Cannot lah, you are seriously damn spoilt."
Wtf? Which part of me spells out 'spoilt' to you, dad? -_-
Me: "... But I will be a damn good girl ok! Really waaaaan. Daddddyyyyyyyyyyyyy ...." *puppy dog eyes*
Dad: "... OKAY OKAY. Rm300 per month. FINAL. You try to talk somemore I'll cut off your allowance for real."
Liz - 1 Parents- 0
WAHAHAHA! I rule!
Sometimes, being a girl is not bad. Not bad at all.
But seriously, my parents can get totally annoying. Seriously. Trust me, if you have not heard my parents nag, you don't know the definition of nag, baby. =/
Recently, though, like my friend adviced me ... I've been REALLY controlling my temper and snappiness around them. The whole reverse psychology thing. And I think it's working, sort of. Everytime they nag me, I pretend to listen attentively with bright bright eyes. (though actually my mind is in Hawaii) Everytime they scold me for using the computer and whatnots, I sing "Okay! ^^" happily. (though I will still use wan)
....... So I'm not really giving them any extra reasons to nag the pants off me. :P And they probably find my antics annoying, cause they just roll their eyes and continue doing their stuffs.
You should try it too! :D At least the blood pressure of your parents (and yours, haha) won't be so high.
Shit man, I just ate so many prawns (mum cooked them cause my sis's home and she loves 'em) and I'm hungry again. Way to go, Liz. Time to buy new pants/skirts, cause pretty soon, I won't fit in all of my current ones. =(
Sunday, February 19, 2006 || Lost, confused, and vulnerable. BLAH
- ... I am not that happy.
I don't like making decisions.
Anyway, I'm not the type that'd actually ask people for advice ... O_o Most of the time when I have a problem, I'll think of a solution, make my own decision, then inform other people.
But blah, I am fuxking confused right now. Okay, so my parents want me to take 6 months to dedicate my ass off to study diploma for my electone/organ. Ya ya, I know it's unbelievable, but I have technically graduated after I finished grade 8, thus I am qualified to take up diploma.
The main reason my parents want me to do so is because they can't seem to sell off my organ, cause there's supposedly a spanking new model available on the market now. And also, they want me to have a "back-up plan", just in case I get cuckoo and decide to screw up my college education.
I wouldn't mind being in the music field, seriously. I mean, teaching kids SOMETHING, and the opportunity to hang out with them has always been one of my dreams. But well, trust me when I say this, I possess NO musical talent at all. I can study it ... but I know that I'm not talented in it. I don't have an ear for it. I wouldn't be able to write a freaking song if my life depended on it, unless it's supposed to sound like Blah Blah Black Sheep.
So they want me to really, REALLY work on my diploma to pass the exam and get the goddamn cert. The bright side of it is that I'll be able to work/play/sleep until the exams are over, since I'll be focusing all my apparent "energy" into my music.
*grunts*
But I don't know if I'm going to go through with this. My parents won't force me if I really don't want it...... I think.
And uh oh, all of a sudden, I feel like Journalism really is NOT my thing. I mean, have you even realized how fuxking SHITTY my english has become ever since SPM ended ah? I think I can't even write a stupid story anymore without puking all over myself at the sadness of reading something that is so SO bad.
And I can just imagine what will happen if I get assigned to interview an asshole.
Me: Hi, I'm Eliza Lee from Blah Blah Blergh Mag! =)
Asshole: *yawn* yea, go on. I am not interested in who you are.
Me: ... Well, errr ... How did you get along with your co-star on set?
Asshole: Heh. We got along REAL fine ... if you know what I mean.
Me: Yo f*cker, are you deliberately trying to make my life a living hell? Can you gimme some good shit for my goddamn article?! ARGH. STUPID BAS--
........... Yeah, the images are spinning oh-SO-clearly in my mind now.
I hate this. I absolutely hate not knowing what's my next move. Get a grip, Liz, you're so damn vulnerable.
I really, REALLY wish that I could somehow get an opportunity to study overseas. I will come home, of course, but I just want to know what it's like to live someplace totally distant and new. Heck, I'm still young now, but there'll come a day when I might wanna settle down. Or when my bones become too fragile they might break if I live in another climate. (haha!)
But my parents will never be able to afford that, and I seriously wouldn't ask that out of them. A scholarship is no-no cause my SPM results will be f*cked either way.
... Whatever. I will follow the tide and go wherever the waves bring me ~~~
And hopefully I'll end up at some gorgeous, exotic Island in the middle of nowhere. And there'll be Tarzan waiting for me there.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, February 18, 2006 || It must feel bloody GOOD to be a hot guy.
- So a few days ago, I was chilling out at my friend's place, and she was chatting on MSN Messenger on her comp. Suddenly, some dude with some dumbass nickname like, 'Chewing Gum for free' came online, who I ignored because the nickname was dumb.
And my friend gasped, grabbed her own chest and fell on the floor wriggling. (heh)
"OMG, he's online!"
Me: "Who?"
"Remember *name censored*?? The hot eurasian guy we talked to in December??"
Me: *thinks* .... "OH MY GOD. Why the heck is he on your list? Dude, gimme his emaaaaaail!!!"
... And we proceeded to open a chat window with him, not to say hi or anything, but to merely lust at his display picture. Which was merely a photo of him playing squash. -_-
There are too freaking many hot girls around. I'm surprised not every ah beng has a trophy hot chick on his arm. Hot guys, however, are a rare gem (I'm sure that even guys would agree with me).
So I was thinking ... it must feel DAMN BLOODY good to be a hot guy, man. If a seriously hot guy walked into a room, trust me, every female eye would turn to him ... even if only a small glance. Even if the girl is taken/your girlfriend/your stalker, trust me, she'd still at least look at the hottie. Unless of course, the dude is totally not her type ...
Of course, heads would turn if a hot girl entered the room as well ... but seriously, there are hot girls everywhere I go. Bah. I should take up lesbianism, but I'm not that fond of boobs.
So all the totally nice-but-not-so-good-looking guys must feel deprived. =/ I mean, bad boys are so 'In' right now yeah. If you don't know what I mean, go read Tucker Max.
Of course, girls are not that shallow or superficial. Personality still matters the most. =)
....... RIGHT.
Ah, what's wrong with our generation? O_O Is it MTV? Is it because of all the gorgeous people on magazines and in the movies?
Of course, I think that drooling at sexy people is okay. As long as you're not some desperate wanker who's lusting for something totally out of his/her league. I mean ... Asking a guy not to drool at a hot chick's assets would be like asking him not to watch porno.
Asking a girl not to drool, blink or stare at a hot guy would be like asking her to not use make-up at all in life. As in, it IS definitely possible to go without it ... but life would be better with it. =))))
FWAH, no wonder hot guys are usually pretty lan ci or arrogant. Too much ego boosts from all around, man.
Speaking of hot guys, come to think of it, all the guys I used to like were so not hot at all. Except for maybe Ezra, but that was different, cause I liked him solely because he was hot. -_-
I remember liking this scrawny, nerdy dude when I was in form 4 ... We had NOTHING in common, and I remember how he'd always SMS me, reminding me to not skip school the next day, or to do my homework. (... Of course, I never listened to him *coughs*)
Opposites attract, I suppose. But wait ... if all the guys I was attracted to were not hot at all, and I liked them because they were the opposite of me .........
IT MUST MEAN THAT I AM UBER HOT! Wahahaha ...
*jk*
Okay, darlings, going off now. My uber cool air stewardess sis, the object of every man's desire, is coming back for a visit tomorrow. Thankfully, her trophy british boyfriend isn't coming along, because as good-looking as he is, I simply cannot really decipher the british accent very well. -_-
Boooo, I feel so sweaty, I shall take my bath now. So that if I smell nicer, the possibility of me bagging a hot guy will rocket up. HAHAHA
Jk, jk. I am shallow and fickle-minded, but I'm still living in reality. =D
Friday, February 17, 2006 || A tribute to the weirdness of Life
- ... So I was thinking about my life. Well, my life in general, the people in my life, and etc ...
I'll have to say that I think that I am happy. Think, because you can never be sure, can you? Happiness is so subjective ... Like, what is it, really? The burst of joy you feel in your stomach whenever you see a loved one? The satisfaction of seeing life go your way?
But seriously, what IS life all about? All of us are going to die anyway. If you think about it in a 'wtf'ish way, you could even say that every step we all took ever since the day we were born itself, is a step leading to our coffins. And I don't really mean that in a morbid way ......
You know, there are some days when I think to myself, 'what the HECK am I doing here?'. I mean, seriously, I contribute almost NOTHING to society. I am just an average girl-next-door who likes food and cute guys, who happens to love herself a tad too much. I don't recycle, I don't do volunteer work, and I sure as hell don't save lives.
(Actually, I guess I should say that I don't usually think about serious stuff like these. Like any other shallow-minded chick out there, I usually think about what movie to catch or how to gain some extra cash. But I'm at a pretty confusing time of my life right now, with family problems and crossroads in life to deal with, thus the nonsensical ponderings.)
I wish that someone could tell me how to live life. Like, is there some kinda weird formula to an ideal lifestyle?
So two years ago, I made a decision. A decision to live my life to its fullest, to really REALLY live it exactly the way I want to. I can't say I regret it, because life was and still is pretty fun ... but to do it, I hurt my parents and maybe even other people along the way. Now I wonder if I should've done it any differently and maybe I should have gone down that 'Ah ... I sacrificed for my loved ones, I'm so cool' lane.
I don't do the things that I think are wrong. I don't do the things people want me to do, if I don't want to do it. I don't pretend to like the people I don't like.
Ah, digressing, speaking of people I don't like... Do you even know how fucking hypocritical some people can be? I do have friends, and because we're friends, we talk, right? Thus I know who they dislike. But sometimes, around the people they tell me they hate, they act so damn friendly and chatty that I think they deserve grammy awards.
As for me, I don't bother pretending to be friendly. I mean ... if I have nothing to say to somebody, why should I even say anything at all? I don't know, if you gave me two options:
a) Have somebody who hates me ignore my existence.
b) Have somebody who hates me come up to me, act all friendly and chatty, and backstab me behind my back
... I'd go for a.
Which is why my friends have the nerve to tell me to learn how to be chatty around the people I don't like. O_o Because, ah, it'd do good for my rep, right? But I don't freaking need to learn how to be friendly ... I can talk when I want to, you know. I just don't like feeling like a hypocrite. =(((
Even that alone reminds me that I think that I'll never really get to live life my own way. So I should succumb to the masses and listen to what people tell me to do, right? After all, if they didn't care about me, why would they advice me in the first place?
But what if I lived a totally mediocre, normal life, studying my ass off in a mediocre college, with mediocre and goody friends ...... and say, while I'm bathing, I suddenly get electrocuted and I die?
I would NOT be happy okay. I need to live my own life. I need to someday skinny dip in some exotic place in the middle of nowhere. I SO do not want to die a virgin, because that would be totally sad.
I really, really don't want to live someone else's life. So what if other people are richer/better/more successful? I want memories, man, not certificates. Because on my deathbed, I want to think back on my life and remember all the happy times I had laughing with the people I love, and not the hours I spent in some ugly office.
But my parents can't understand that. They want me to live a totally normal and predictable life ... which I sort of understand, because my family is sort of crazy and dysfunctional. So much that they want ME to live a normal life so that they don't have to spend the rest of their lives worrying about me, like they do with my sister and the other crazy ones.
But these things ... I think that they're in our genes. The details of how crazy my family is should be kept private, for their sake, though my best friends know about them. I don't want to be like them, but I'll admit that I admire some of them because their lives are ... theirs.
I wish that I was born with more guts. Among all the people in my family (and extended family) of my generation, I am the most passive one. Like, for example, I saw this majorly cute guy in the bus, alone, on Valentines day. I kept on staring at him (cause I had nothing else to do anyway, yo) and there were times when he'd look back and there'd be that freaky-but-nice eye contact thing. If it was my older sister ... she'd definitely have talked to him and got his number, and maybe even a date, because she is SO smooth. But me ... I am too passive and too shy.
Which makes me feel soooooooo sad. =(
But I have only ONE opportunity to live, and I am definitely going to live life. My own way. Screw what other people think of me, screw the standards of the masses, I only aim to please myself. And not hurt other people in the process, of course.
My parents want a rich and successful daughter. Guys want skinny girls who wear pink skirts. But I'll make my parents happy, one way or other ... and as for the guy bit, I will never, ever change the person I am for some dude who follows his pointer in life. I am not going to starve myself or puke after food yo, nor am I gonna be some manja girly girl with pink flowers in my hair. The last stupid boyfriend I had was a year and a half ago ... I'm still alive, and I will continue surviving. o_O
Dear Life, let's shake hands and make peace with each other. =) Let's be good friends, okay?
Because I am going to own you.
Thursday, February 16, 2006 || A pretty good V day, and the most embarassing story ever told.
- HELLO my dears.
How was your Valentines day??!? Mine was pretty great.
THANK GOD FOR SINGLE BEST FRIENDS! It is in such times that I truly appreciate my friends, you know? (though Chris couldn't join us)
I mean, well, there were people who asked me if I wanted to hang out with them ... but, I dunno, I think that I subconsciously figured that my friends would need me more. And I guess I needed people to bitch and totally be myself with. I wasn't really in the mood to jaga reputasi aku ... if you know what I mean.
(Most of us are usually more self-conscious and we act differently around different people. I mean, if I was with other people, you wouldn't expect me to diss funny looking couples and all with them, right?)
Anyway, Jaclyn gave me a Garfield today. O_o
Soooooo cute ah. Thanks bestie, boys come and go, but friends are forever yo.
Anyway, watched Big Momma's House 2 as well yesterday. It was okay. (I still wanna watch The Descent!)
Today was possibly the most embarassing day ever of my entire life. I swear.
So because I bunked over at Jac's place yesterday, today we went to meet up with Cally at OUG, our usual yum cha place. Anyway, Jac complained that she had a tummy ache after a few gulps of sucky honey milk tea and she declared that she needed to shit. (ok, ppl, don't flinch or wince k! :p)
Being the absolutely good friend that I was, I offered to follow her to the toilets. And while she was shitting in one of the cubicles, I was in the cubicle beside her, uh, playing with my phone. Never mind the weirdness of that. We were even having extremely loud conversations over the cubicles, cause we thought that nobody was in the toilet. (Until some asshole actually opened my door, thinking that nobody was in the cubicle, and nearly saw me stupidly sitting on the toilet seat with my bare ass. Wtf, and I thought we were already talking so loud.)
So while I was playing with beloved N-gage phone, I turned on a couple of recordings that my friends and I made a few days ago ... of us singing. LOL. Which, of course, isn't exactly pleasing to the ear, mind you. So while we were listening to the stupid music and laughing over the cubicles ... I sort of made out voices of people talking outside of our cubicles.
"Eh ... tadi ada guest complain lah, mereka cakap ada dua perempuan gila dalam toilet ini. Toilet yang mana ye?"
....... Which I brushed aside, because it COULD have been a fragment of my imagination ..... RIGHT?
But I was wrong.
When we finally left the toilet, after Jaclyn was done with her extra-long business, a toilet cleaner came up to us and said:
"Kamu dua ni tinggal di sini ke?"
Me: "Um... bukan lah. Kita hanya minum teh di cafe ajer."
"Tadi guest sana complain ye ... mereka cakap kamu berdua bernyanyi dalam toilet ... Mau guna toilet memang boleh, tapi harus jaga sikitlah."
Jaclyn: *runs away*
Me: "Ah ... itu memang benar. Budak kecik, nakal sikit la kita ... hehehe!"
(WHAT THE F*** WAS I THINKING?!?! ... But can't really blame me, I was abandoned.)
.............
I have never been labelled 'perempuan gila' in my entire life before. And I never expected it either.
....................
Turns out I was wrong.
Shit man, I think that my best friend and I are totally bad influences for each other. That was SO DAMN EMBARASSING ARRRRRRRR!
LUCKILY it didn't happen on Valentines day. Or I'd have flushed my own big head down the toilet bown. =(
Oh, and I heard that my 13 year old cousin, who recently got introduced to the lovely world of the internet, received a big-ass teddy bear from her online boyfriend. And apparently, she brokeup not once, but twice last month.
Where is justice, man? =(
Wednesday, February 15, 2006 || Nothing in particular.
- SO ... it's finally Valentines day. For real.
And I am SO fucking depressed. Actually, not really depressed lah ... it's just that I'm feeling so sick and woozy right now. Last night was the shittiest night ever of my life, man ...
Well, maybe except for the time I was having a high-ass temperature in SG and missing the smell of my own bed. But then again, I was boiling at the time, so I guess it doesn't really count.
So I was tossing and turning in my bed all freaking night. Not dwelling in self-pity, yada yada ... but basically, I just couldn't sleep. No idea why also. Must've been my body playing tricks on me yo.
THANK GOD I didn't agree to meet anyone today. I am SO SO out of it. I feel so hungover-ish. I think I woke up at the wrong side of the bed today.
Bleh.
Nvm. It's just valentines day, I don't really care if I look and feel like shit today. Because seriously, for singles ... it's just like any other day, right? *yawn*
I'm going to make a new blog for my shitty and short posts (like this one), and leave this blog for my posts that actually makes sense. =D
*stretches* I still feel so sleepy. Anybody wanna go yum cha? Lolz. Like I said, I hate planning, cause for one, I hate it when I make plans with someone, and he or she changes it last minute ... and usually, knowing myself, I have very high tendencies to do that. Especially when I'm lacking sleep, wahaha. So time for me to decide what to do for this lovely Valentines day.
Hmmmm.
For once in their entire marriage, my parents are celebrating Valentines day. Which means they probably won't be back till quite late. Therefore I really, really don't want to stay home today ... I guess I'll just stay over at any of my friend's house and get drunk. Though one can is enough to make me fall asleep on the spot. Err ...
V day, go away.
For all you people who are actually in love and have someone special to celebrate V day with ... enjoy it, ya?
Tuesday, February 14, 2006 || Stupid. -_-
- During dinner, after I went out to buy food:
Uncle: "So what're you doing tomorrow?"
Me: *feigns innocence* "What's on tomorrow?"
Uncle: "Valentines day loh. Who you going out with?"
Me: "I dunno. Tomorrow only see lah, I hate making plans ..." (which is true)
Uncle: "Hehehe don't bluff lah ... your parents are going to Melaka tomorrow you know, they probably won't be home 'till quite late hor."
Me: "......... I know."
Uncle: "So if you're not going anywhere with anyone, you help me paint the gate okay."
Me: "................................ OMG! Who spends their valentines day painting gates?! OKAY OKAY I'm not going to stay home lah."
Uncle: *laughs*
CONSPIRACY! SET-UP!
My family = Weird. -_______________-
There are no gory shows showing at the cinema. I feel like watching something gory and bloody with a lot of people dying. Mwahahaha! But everything that's showing now is, like, romance.
Not like it's possible to even get tix. hmm ...
- ... I just committed the BIGGEST crime a single, mourning girl could ever do the day RIGHT before valentines day.
I watched City of Angels.
......... And I cried like my best friend just died for the last twenty minutes of that show. Oh my GOD, if you've watched it, you'd know how fking sad and romanticcccc it is. I nearly died of a heart attack, it's possibly the most emo film I have ever watched in my whole life. Melodramatic korean films inclusive. ARHHHHH!!!!!!!
I'm so gonna kill myself. My parents are blasting love songs from our hall stereo, so I've been listening to Richard Marx, Air Supply and god-knows-who-else all day. I smell a conspiracy!!! They're trying to freak me out so badly that I pack my bags, get a job, and leave!!!
*jk*
Anyway, go listen to Wind Beneath My Wings by Bette Midler. It's not really mushy-wushy or romantic ... I like it cause the lyrics are really really nice. And it applies to friendship, family, etc.
Ohhhh, oh, oh, oh, ohhh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.
So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.
Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.
It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.
*sigh* so sweet and meaningful. Too bad I don't have anyone to dedicate it to. =(((( Friends? They already know that I love them lah. (RIGHT?!?!?!) Family? UHhh .... *keeps quiet*
Tsk. Such an emo day. Should I go watch Notting Hill now? Har har har ...
Monday, February 13, 2006 || Stupid films I've been watching!
- Hellow, people!
Seriously, I have nothing much to blog about nowadays. Because life, for now, is too good to be true, for me. I mean ... this is THE life, in Eliza Lee's books.
I know, I know, I'm a lazy person. I love doing nothing. I love staring at the sky, wondering why the air is so humid and the clouds are so lovely. I like simplicity (... in other words, not doing anything complicated. HAHA).
So yes, I wish life could always be like this. I mean ... I really doubt that in any other phase of my life, I'll ever get to live life this way again. Soon, there'll probably be college, which promises heaps of workload ... and after college, there'll be work, bills to pay, yada yada.
I think the next time I'll ever get to, um, relax like this will probably when I'm pregnant. If I even ever get married. But better get married lah, if not I won't have any reason to cut myself some slack..... HAHAHA
Anyway, I've been on a movie marathon for the past few days. Lent a lot of DVDs from friends, downloaded a few and etc. Mostly, I'm just catching on all the OLD shows I missed, not the recent ones ... because, I don't know, asides from Brockback Mountain, no other 'new' show caught my interest. Even Memoirs of a Geisha was only ... okay.
So I'll just blog about all the stuff I've been watching for the past few days.
Never been Kissed - starring Drew Barrymore and David Arquette
Okay, this's just a typical romantic comedy about a young journalist in her 20s, assigned to go undercover as a high school student. Of course, she had a horrible time in high school in her own time, shunned by all the popular kids ...
So will things be any different now?
This chick flick is not bad. I've always liked Drew Barrymore, especially in her romantic comedies, 'cause I think she has a natural flair for it. Hey, 50 First Dates wasn't too bad also, ya?
But well, it IS pretty chick-flickish. Very fairytale, which you know, rejuvenates hope for all single, nerdy people out there. LOL
10 things I hate about you - starring Heath Ledger and Julia Stiles
I actually only watched this because Heath Ledger was in it. Shhhh.
This flick is yet another typical teenage romantic comedy, and it seriously is similiar to She's All That, though I like Julia Stiles a lot more than that cutesy chick in SAT.
Julia Stiles plays a rebellious, shunned and angsty girl, who happens to be the sister of a pretty and popular babe. So when their strict dad enforces a rule on her younger sister, stating that she's not allowed to date until Julia Stiles is, all the guys brew up a plan to get Heath Ledger, a weird hippy dude (who, obviously, is the exact opposite of Julia's character) to date Julia, so that they'll be able to date her younger sister.
Obviously, Heath and Julia fall for each other, under a series of pretty cute and hilarious circumstances. But it was a set-up from the start ... so what happens when she finds out?
-_-
The Virgin Suicides - starring Kirsten Durst and Josh HarnettApparently, I heard that this was the role that shot Kirsten to stardom. And after watching the show, I think that I really liked her best in this role. (didn't really like her in Spider man or Bring it on)
Entering lesbian territory ... SHE IS SO CUTE here. Like, damn damn cute + hot. No idea why also.
I dont know how to describe this movie, it's some pretty complicated shit, about strict parents and all their daughters committing suicide one by one. Though extremely worth a watch, because I could TOTALLY relate to it.
Freddy VS Jason, starring dunno who.I seriously have no idea why I watched this in the first place. I REALLY wanted to get freaked out and was in the mood for some slashing, blood and gore. Think Saw 2.
(cause, well, cannot watch too many love shows lah, I'll get emo. LOL)
... But this movie, uh, I didn't know whether I should laugh or cry at it. I mean ... it was just funny, and I wasn't sure if it was meant to be funny. O______o
Sheesh man, is a seriously scary show so hard to find, nowadays? Alien vs Predator was another 'dont-know-what-to-say' film. What's with all these monster VS monster stuff, anyway? These movies make humans seem so stupid and insignificant, heh.
Gremlins 2: The New Batch
When I was REALLY, really young, I vaguely remember watching this movie before. (Early 90s, I think .. which meant I must've been 4 or 5 -_-)
So I jumped at the opportunity to rewatch it.
AND I AM IN LOVE. Shit man, Gizmo the Gremlin is SO DAMN CUTE. I went 'AWWW' at least 7 times during the movie!
Someday, when I'm rich, I am SO going to get one of these ... I don't care how expensive Gizmo soft toys are. SO CUTE, can?
... Sorta reminds me of the grey Furby I used to have. O_o
I haven't been to the cinemas that much lately... I watched Prime yesterday though. It is pretty good, mainly because Uma Thurman is amazing and Bryan Greenberg is God-like. Handsome. Very much so. *drools*
Okay, I still haven't watched Notting Hill and City of Angels, though I already have the shows with me ... Mainly because, well, Valentines day is tomorrow, and I didn't feel in the mood to swoon at mushy romantic scenes. -_-
Anyway, have a lovely day ahead people. Girls and guys, now's the time to go ask that chick or dude out for V day if you haven't already ... Unless you're single and possibly dateless, then buy a few cans of coke and get some porno ready. LOL jkjk!
Saturday, February 11, 2006 || Camwhorish post of a pretty good day!
- ... I was just taking my bath, and after I turned on the water heater, I realized that I forgot to switch on the main switch before coming into the toilet!
... And the switch is in my kitchen. -_-
Not wanting to wake up my parents, and NOT wanting to sneak around my house half naked, I ended up bathing in ice cold water.
BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! I'm FREEZING now. -_-
Anyway, nothing much to say today. The first half of my day was spent loitering around in OUG, looking out for job vacancies,
In the evening, the Gang (... referring to Jac + Cally + Me, our stupid trio) came over to my house, for a supposedly pre-valentines celebration, in which we'll mourn our, err, singlehood and thank God for each other. *smirks* (though stupid Cally has a boyfriend. -.-)
So the Plan was to raid my fridge, steal a couple of beers, have a lot of snacks, and gossip in my apartment's garden. However, they forgot to buy the snacks, so we ended up, uh, improvising. :D
The Hulk's wife and I. The pic says it all .......
Our "inseparable" trio. Uh.
Jaclyn a.k.a The Hulk's Wife, is like, scary. But it's all supposedly only a part of her 'image' yo.
-_-
A pic I'm VERY proud of taking:
(Though actually nothing to be proud about, HAHA!)
HAHAHA! Shit man, we're as perverted as a bunch of horny bar guys put together. -_-
And because nobody bought snacks, yours truly, fabulous cook a.k.a Liz, whipped up a dish, because she pitied her hungry and 'skinny' friends. :)
...... Of course, it doesn't matter that it isn't exactly, well, appealing. Hehehe.
I know, I know. Very "happening" indeed.
Cally likes the crab meat! heh heh heh ...
Yum seng!!!
Which, I actually didn't drink at all. Only, err, two gulps, while Jac downed the rest of it. I can't drink, I absolutely SUCK at consuming alcohol, because a can is all it takes for me to go 'ZzZzzzz'.
And of course, the obligatory camwhore pics. In which, you can see that since I haven't been camwhoring for soooo loooong, my skills have been flushed down the toilet bowls.
I am, like, gay.
...... I mean, I LOOK gay.
Seriously failed ban cute pose:
....... -____________-
HAHA, I like this pic. My fugly zheen gak face yo!
I know, I know, my room very messy. Don't need to tell me that. :-)
And last, but certainly not the least ...
The cutest creature on earth! (I'll admit that shes cuter than me lah ... HAHA)
FIFI!!!!!
...... Who looks rather scary with yellow eyes. :p
Anyway, gonna go watch Freddy VS Jason now, ALL BY MYSELF, in the middle of the night, to freak myself out silly. -_-
*hides under pillow*
Friday, February 10, 2006 || ... Nothing, really.
- Today was funny. Remember the funny waiter I wrote about some time back? Anyway, against my own will, he made another appearance in my life again today.
Stupid scenario that followed: (convo in cantonese, translated to english)
Jaclyn: "YO!"
Waiter: "Long time no see!!"
Me: "... Hie. ^_^"
Jaclyn: "Eliza has been waiting for you all these time!!!"
Me: "Wtf dude?"
Jaclyn: "She is sooooo sad la, she waiting for you to ask her out on valentines day."
Waiter: "Har? I dont believe nobody ask her out"
Me: "... *coughs* ... Um ... well ... enough ar ....."
Jaclyn: "FUIYO really one ... See her sad face ... "
Me: " *coughs* "
Waiter: "Okay! Next tuesday after my work you come here, we go out k?"
Me: " AHEM .... FWAH!!! The nasi lemak here DAMN nice wei ... eh, who cook one ar? seriously damn nice ... hmm ... eat more, Jaclyn. HEhehehehe"
Jaclyn: "HAHahAHAHAHHAHAA you fucker lah, go reject people ..."
Me: " ............... Hehehe! Mmm ... I like lah, nasi lemak. Umm .. one more glass of water please??"
Waiter: " ...... okay, I'll get it."
FWAH ... CLOSE CALL! I know, I know, I'm a bit mean. But I was just reacting instinctively. -.-
Anyway, us single girls, Jaclyn + me + (Chris?) + (whoever else. Ivy? Cally?) are probably going to spend our Valentines day at a BBQ steamboat place, with a lot of beer to get dirty and jiggy with it.
My parents, however, have planned a "romantic" outing to quaint old Melaka town. Which saddens me to no end, because to think that my PARENTS are going to have a rendezvous while their pretty and cute daughter, moi, am probably going to only spend the night with other S&A friends. And it's not even an orgy.
Hand me the red wine, peeps.
Actually, I don't really get the fuss. For some reason, everybody is gushing over Valentines Day this year. What makes this year so different, eh? I don't remember anybody being that worked up over it the previous years... And with everybody going on and on about it, it rubs off me as well. Which explains why I've been rambling on about it as well.
I will spend that day just the same way I did every other year ... I won't plan anything for it. (Asides from the BBQ steamboat, MAYBE.) ... I'll just decide the day before it what I want to do, and who I want to spend it with. Last year, I think I went to watch a movie with a friend. (Or was it the year before it?) ... So this year isn't going to be any more eventful.
No rendezvous for Liz. =( Hmm, maybe I should go to P.D with friends and play Paintball. WAH, that will be so fun!
And my uncle's going to paint my room. :D I wanted a colourful room, like different colour on different walls ... but looks like I'll only end up with a bland pink room. Yup, PINK. I can't believe it ... haha.
I'll have fun, anyway. And did anybody watch The virgin suicides? Wow, Kirsten Durst was so damn cute in that movie.... !!!
Uh, just in case you were wondering, I am NOT pulling a Brokeback Mountain. Or fountain, the female equivalent of it. HAHA.
Shit, three posts in a day? Well ... it's almost 12 am anyway. So never mind ya.
- I just spent the whole day watching stupid romantic comedies like Notting Hill, Never Been Kissed, 10 things I hate about you, She's all That and yada yada ...
WAHH, why am I torturing myself like this?!?!?!?!?! Brokeback mountain not emo enough ah, Liz?
*wipes tear*
Thursday, February 09, 2006 || Liz rants. Get used to it.
- I am feeling ...
Okay. =)
I'm still a bit upset, but feeling somewhat pensive and ALRIGHT already. I donno why, but everytime I read other people rant on their blogs, I can't help but raise my eyebrows ... cause most of it freaking drama queen, right?
But I've been ranting so much lately as well. ARgH. And its not even PMS, cuz I never get PMS-sy. These things piss the pants off me, though:
1) Stereotypical, judgemental people.
2) People who whine about their weight, looks etc. (okok, I know I'm guilty of this lately, blarh)
3) ... People who rant too much. (okok, I know I know)
4) People who critisize me. I'm sorry, but I'm quite prideful + egoistic, so I don't take criticism very well, even if its constructive criticism. (Unless I asked for it, haha)
Fwah, damn emo. I hate feeling this way. Like, I don't know HOW to release all this energy and frustration in me. Food? Maybe. But mostly, I just write in my diaries and shit ... I mean, that's the best way I release all this shit. Most effective also.
Anyway, my parents fall into category 1) ... Sad, but true. Of course, I don't really blame them, they are too conventional and too set in their ways, and the ways of 'normal' people. For instance, if I suddenly started blasting metal goth, growling music on my stereos (I know some ppl seriously dig this genre), they'd just assume that I joined some kinda satanic cult for troubled teenagers. And they'd blame my friends, etc bla bla as well.
Speaking of stereotypical people, I'm here to rant, again. I dont give a damn if its hypocritical of me (since I hate ranters).
So anyway, I was at this restaurant, with Jac and another guy. And then, this ... pretty big-sized woman (actually VERY big sized lah) walked in. And on the other table, this bunch of guys started sniggering and laughing when she walked pass. So fucking mean, right? (of course, Jac and the guy were laughing too, Err. Oh well.)
I have NEVER met a girl that has never been self-conscious about her weight before. (Uh, Jaclyn not included.) Actually, I don't think I'm exaggerating when I say this, almost all of us girls have puked, or reconsidered puking after eating. I don't even know why we do it; I think it's because that being fat is so unacceptable and even taboo.
Because, it is the common knowledge that when you're fat, people say things like:
"I will NOT date her, she's so fat EW!"
"Oh my gosh, *insert name* should seriously diet lah. She is, like, obese .. no wonder don't have boyfriend."
"Maybe she'll be not bad looking if only shes not that fat ..."
So, because of what society expects from us, from what YOU guys want from us, we have no choice but be, like, thin.
And some of us, sooner or later, we'll just end up looking like
Which is like, seriously fking scary. Because girls who look like they'll break into half when you're humping them are scary.
Ugh, I feel bad for that woman. I can't imagine people laughing at me that way, I think I'd kill them. Thank God I dont give a flying cow about my weight (though I complain ever now and then), cause I'll rather be fat and happy than thin and suicidal, thank you very much. I heard that if you're anorexic, you get a LOT of mood swings and get suicidal all the time, cause your body image is THAT low.
Damn, I want salmon. Ish.
Another bunch of doltish assholes are people who can't accept u for who you are. Actually, I secretly think that these people are actually the most insecure type, and that they secretly can't accept THEMSELVES, which is why they have this ability to find faults with friends, bfs, family members etc.
I have a friend, she and her bf breaks up EVERY DAY. And get back together EVERY DAY. It's like, this freaking cycle, man. And I've listened to their conversations before, the only conversation they ever have, is to accuse each other of seeing other guys or girls. Wtf, people?
And they scream at each other all the time as well. Like, seriously SCREAM, you know? I don't freaking understand how can people scream at each other on the phone. I mean, it's so weird, no eye contact, body language and etc. I have never screamed at anybody on the phone before, because even if I'm really pissed, I'll just find some lame excuse and get off the phone ... and call back later when I'm less annoyed.
I dont think I will ever have a boyfriend. I'm not built to have a relationship. Because half the time, I don't even really bother because I'm not used to controlling people or being controlled. So if some guy I dated wanted to hang out with other girls ... I think I wouldn't be pissed, like most girls would. O_o Or if he said he wanted to rob a bank, I'd probably get excited and ask him to bring me along.
fwah, no wonder I always fall for nerds. Or those good good type that don't want to date girls because they want to study or whatever.
I'm so happy I'm single. The only problem I have in life, right now, is the whole parent thing. And my SPM results, which in actuality I don't even really give a damn about it.
