Tuesday, February 21, 2006 || When Liz is RESTLESS, it is never a pretty picture.
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I have never felt this restless and bored for a very, very long time. This restless feeling in your gut that makes you feel jittery and hyper all over. It's like an itch you can't stop scratching .... A zit you can't stop popping. *don't mind the lame MTV pun*
Today was horrible. I swear, I was so restless and bored, I probably would've gone out to dinner with a rapist if he asked me nicely.
I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!
I don't know how you guys can do it. When life gets soooo repetitive and routine ... how can you still go along with it? =(
... Okay, now that is my biggest weakness in life. I can't stand routine. Everytime my life gets boring and repetitive, I absolutely HAVE to do something about it to change it. I'm gonna take my music diploma lessons soon ... but still!
What do I need to do to get out of this ... this ... mental TRAP? Date any asshole so that at least life will be a bit different then?
Go clubbing?? (.. but it's not my kinda thing =( ) Take up smoking?!? (... Nonono. No way.) Take a few days off and hitch-hike around town aimlessly???
Walk up to any stranger and kiss him squarely on the lips just to see what happens?!
:( I haven't felt this down in a very long time.
Now I know how bloody annoying I must be to chat with. I mean, seriously, most of the time, my status is 'busy', 'away' or appear offline. And half the time I'm online, I'm not even at my comp, thus I don't really reply people that much, so I unintentionally cut off a lot of people who're chatting with me. =(
But today, cause I was feeling so bored and sullen, I changed my status to online and chatted with people I haven't chatted with in some time. And when some of them took their own sweet time in replying me, I got sooooo annoyed.
Hehe, I'm sorry peeps! Now I know how annoying I am. =( I WILL CHANGE. Yeah right.
I gave up chatting after awhile. Because I was feeling so down, I went out for a long long walk after it rained. I love the weather now, the air feels so cool and fresh. :D I wanted to bring Fifi along, but I decided against it cause she doesn't really like walking around in public. Plus the rain just stopped, and it was already pretty late.
I like my neighbourhood. Sometimes. Just now, when I was sullenly walking to the nearby 7-11, a bloody van freaking stopped beside me, and the driver SCREAMED "BOO!!!!!" at me. I SWEAR, THE EXACT WORD. I was so shocked, I stopped and yelped "WTF!!!!!!!". -_- I swear, I was seriously shocked out of my wits, I thought I was gonna die of my heart attack.
Bear in mind that I spent the whole day watching Saw 1 and 2, thus the paranoia was still fresh in my mind.
These people should die. Just die. Screaming at an innocent, pissed-looking girl walking alone in the dark is NOT FUNNY, YOU ASSHOLE. Whoever you are.
After the asshole incident, I quickly headed back for my apartment, and I resorted to moping on the garden swings, SMSing people that I thought would cheer me up. Hoho, but it seems like everybody is having bad days, and one of my good friends who recently broke up with her bf (I smsed her cause I thought she wouldn't sound happy-go-lucky and could rant bersama-sama aku -_-) informed me that she already has a new bf.
Someone buy a cake and smash it into my face, please.
When I finally came home, having decided that the night view wasn't really that nice after all, my family members were all in the hall waiting for me.
Mum: "Where were you?"
Me: "...... I told you I was going out for a walk!"
Uncle: "Hoho ... Surely go find boyfriend secretly lah."
Me: "..................... Hm." (I was in a bad mood! =S)
Sister: "Yeah. She definitely has a boyfriend already, look at her face. When I was your age also I used to sneak out to meet guys what."
Me: "Hmph." (... HAHA, apparently, a bad mood doesn't exactly do much for my wits)
Dad: "You are too young to date! *lecture lecture*"
Mum: "Don't listen to your dad, it's okay wan. But he has to be christian, not too young, bla bla .."
Me: "OH MY GOD. ENOUGH LA YOU PEOPLE. ARRRRRRRRRR !@!#@!@"
Sis: "Hah. Interesting."
................. My family is hopeless. I only spent one full day at home, and there are already cuckoo-birds flying around in my brains. -_____-
I vow to do SOMETHING different in my life. Meet new people. Go out more. Visit the library more often. (?!?!) Stop talking to happy cute-cute people. Change my fashion style to goth.
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I think that for once in my life, I need some beer. -_-
SOMEBODY SAVE ME FROM THIS BORING ROUTINE! I need a change, yo!
... Or soon I will be blogging from a mental asylum. Tanjung Rambutan, perhaps. =(
Edited: My ass is literally aching from sitting on the comp for five hours straight. Woo-hoo, I own.
