Thursday, January 04, 2007 || Slow internet connection ... gah!
- I finally decided that my new year's resolution would be to make the best out of all the relationships in my life. I guess that I should work at my relationship with my parents, friends, etc ...
I wanted to pick something like 'find true love' or something, but that would be pretty hard to achieve. We'll just see how 2007 goes.
And oh, I wanna pick up a sport that I haven't tried before! Can't decide which one should I try out yet.
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So the electricity went out twice today. The first time there was a blackout, I was typing out a blog post. The second time, I was rubbing soap all over my body in the toilet. Great timing, I know. =/
Jaclyn called my house today, all the way from Terengganu, and she was crying on the phone. 'Cause apparently, the living condition in her NS camp is really horrible, chinese people were only 10%, and that there were a lot of strict rules. (No handphones, guys and girls must stand 10 ft away from each other O.o)
She's not one to cry that often ... so when she does, it has to be really bad. O_o Man ... and to think I was wishing that *I* was the one who was going away to somewhere far for three months. Heh
And actually, even though I haven't seen her for only one week, I miss her a lot. I feel like a part of me is really unstable when my best friend isn't around ... When she's here, I know that there's always someone who's just there, you know. Someone who will listen to everything I have to say and back me up whenever I get into deep shit. And someone to just call up in the middle of the night to go to the mamak with, whenver I'm feeling bored.
While my other friends are great, most of them aren't really 'one call away' kinda friends. Actually, I prolly only have ... 3? totally dependable friends who'll teman me no matter the time/place. And everybody's super busy nowadays. -_-
So ... I am feeling a bit shaky, bored and unsteady at the moment. Heee.
I figure that there are two sides to me. There is Happy Eliza, who's funny, confident, narcissistic, and falls in love really fast. On the other hand, there is also Sad Eliza, who's insecure, a loner, untrusting, and cynical.
Because there are two very contradicting personalities in me ... I guess that's why I sometimes tend to have 'shaky' phases, when I'm so unsure of myself and what I want.
I shall start referring to myself from a third person point-of-view. Even when I blog. Something like 'Happy Eliza is feeling absolutely great today!' or 'Sad Eliza wants all the fuckers to go away'.
Actually, I like Happy Eliza a lot more. When *I'm* fun ... life is more fun. But if there wasn't the more serious side in me ... I'd get into different kinds of shit everyday, man.
This post is weird. It took a full 360 degrees turn from what I'd originally wanted to blog about. I blame it on the power shortage just now. Sad Eliza is pissed at her sucky memory.
Labels: self-discovery
