Wednesday, August 23, 2006 || Untitled, part 4, cause I'm lazy to think of a witty title
- Today, I woke up feeling the worst I've ever felt in quite some time ... I was broken, guilty, regretful, sleepy from the huge lack of sleep, and ultimately really unhappy. It didn't really help that just yesterday, I had a fight with two people I cared about. Nothing too serious, but they were over really trivial matters, and I wished I'd reacted differently.
I really, truly wanted to crawl under my bedsheets and just stay there, lost in my lovely dreamland for the rest of the day. Just a trip away from the world, all the responsibilities, and reality.
But I couldn't. Cause I didn't wanna get into a habit of skipping classes anymore, like what happened in high school.
I grudgingly dragged my lazy ass out of bed, changed, and tried to look as cheerful and as normal as I could.
My day turned out to be a lot better than I expected, though. =)
But I still came home feeling like I could really use a hug (har har, yeah I know.) ...... or ice cream. For once, I don't wanna give a damn if I get obese from an overdose of sweet food. I really wanted ice cream, for some weird reason. Any kind of ice cream would do.
And I guess it's pretty obvious by now that I'm pretty vocal about what I want. But it's still a nice surprise, cause I honestly don't expect people to take my random pathetic whines seriously ......
There were more but dad and I ate some already. Want some? *wink* I don't reckon I'd be able to finish them all too soon anyway ...Like I said before, I think that it's the small, sweet, inexpensive stuff that makes me melt and feel blessed. Just thoughtful gestures from anyone. =) Thanks!
And suddenly, my day just doesn't seem to be that shitty at all, after all.
Heck ... I actually think that today was pretty damn nice. :D
Ice-cream is the shit, ya'll. Instant depression cure. (I have to insert at least one crappy sentence in all my posts, even my emo posts, coz you know I need to instill Eliza-Lee-ness and spread my nonsensical humour to as many people as I can. Okay wtf, now that really doesn't make sense.)
