Wednesday, October 12, 2005 || What are you living for?
I wrote three articles for Joshua's newsletter, while he only needed one ... o_O
Man, I'm so nice. Hehe.
And he chose the Friendship one, hmm.
Anyway, no updates today. I've been watching korean movies and The Wedding Crashers with my friends, and I have a stupid stupid stupid Pra-SPM exam tomorrow.
Ugh. I have no choice but to go anyway, as I haven't passed up my school-leaving form. Darn.
One thing worst than dying, is reliving my form five year, as fun as it was. :(
Oh well. Wish me luck, alright? And even though I wrote the three articles in less than two hours, I wouldn't want to put them to waste. Here's one of them, though it may suck... Why waste it, right?
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What are you living for?
As youths of the nation, many of us are drifting amongst a sea of faces, looking for a safe harbour where we can truly live our lives the way we want to. But as of today ... how are many of us truly living our lives? What are our priorities and where do we focus all our attention to? At the end of the day, as we lie exhausted on our beds, what is the last thing on our minds? Our outdated handphones? The opposite sex?
I often wonder what would happen to me once I've reached the end of my lifespan. Would there be a huge, blinding flash of light with an angel emerging out of it, ready to carry me up to heaven to meet the Maker? Or would images of my life be played out like a blockbuster movie, reviving all the most joyous, memorable and embarrassing moments of my life? And most of all, would what I have done throughout my whole life be significant and important? After all, it'd be the end of a tale, the conclusion to a newly completed story. Who cares if we lived it selfishly, living only to fulfill our own desires, uncaring to seek our true purpose, anyway?
Think again.
The power to live, the will to carry on, the desire to seek for something so much more, and the potential to reach for it ... God gave it all to us and I believe that there is nothing that we severely lack in order to live. I tend to think that life is like a storybook God created, just for us. He drafted out the brief plot and slowly defined our characters, hoping that we'll choose to play out the role He has chosen for us. And many a time, like in countless fairytales, the main character falls into temptation, is left lost and severely battered ... but eventually finds the courage and strength to grasp for an opening to his goal, to serve and fulfill his purpose. And characters like that, we often label them as "heroes".
Are you a hero in your own story?
We find satisfaction in many, many things. Handphone collections, strings of boy/girlfriends, partying with our friends ... but is the last thing we think of at night, before we fall asleep, 'I'm proud of myself; I did many things God would be pleased of. I can't wait for tomorrow because I'm going to do something even more meaningful than what I did today'? Would all the sex, money or fame in the world really make a person happy, truly joyous from the core of his heart? I highly doubt it.
It doesn't mean that God doesn't like us. With all our party-throwing, big-mouthing, attention-craving, hormone-raging antics, He still loves us to bits. And I’m pretty sure that even though we slip and fall all the time, the Big Guy up there is still smiling at us through tears, like any proud father would. But the thing is ... do you love Him enough to want to make Him happy, even if it means living a seemingly boring and pious life (which it's not, by the way) for Him?
We may be 'Just Teenagers', but the truth is, we're just like any other person. We want to be heard. We want our opinions to matter. We want to make a difference and mend the flaws in today’s systems. At least, I'm sure many of us do. Are you willing to let temporary pleasure numb your mind and be in the way of the purposes and dreams God has placed in your lives? Whose desires are you satisfying – yours or the Almighty's?
We all want to be the heroes and heroines in our own fairytale. One single decision you make may either make or break you. Which one will it be? The path to your dreams, freedom and everything God has in mind for you? Or to live merely to satisfy your own hunger and feed your own needs? Think about it.
What and who are you living for?
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I know it doesn't really reflect me, as a person (I know I come off as pretty, uh, selamba and wild.), but I do love God, in my own way, so don't call me a hypocrite ya? :D
And OH YEAH, my cousins gave me Rm100!!!!! Bliss!!! (I know that to some people, RM100 may not be a lot ... but hey, money isn't really easy to come by for me. I'm not rich, and 99% of the time, I'm dead broke. :P)
I love them I love them I love them. <3
See how easy is it for me to love someone? Hehe!
I'm wondering what should I do with it. Hmm. Should I:
1) Buy Memoirs of a Geisha, a book I've been dying to read since God-knows-when.
2) Buy a domain name, and that Rm7.60 hosting plan pandaboy from MBF told me about.
(But this is sort of stupid, because there is an http://www.elizalee.com/. Like, wtf? The title of that website is Eliza Lee Beautiful Hair Saloon, done by some korean chick.)
I'm supposed to be the only Eliza Lee in the world! Grr...
3) Go Sunway Lagoon or Times Square with my friends. :D
4) Go on a shopping spree, something I haven't done since forever. Who wants to come with me? Hah!
5) Bribe everybody to start posing for Fansigns for me. LOL.
The most logical and useful thing to do is to save it in my piggy bank, or something ... But I'm not one who plans and saves for the future, bah. Haihz. Any other ideas, anyone?
Damn. I hate exams. *wipes tear*
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P.S: I moved this down. It was originally merged with the so-called contest. Pfft.
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