Thursday, March 15, 2007 || Defining
- So I had a series of really weird dreams. I kept on waking up after each of them - only to go back to sleep - and dream of something again.
Really weird, 'cause the dreams felt SO real. And unlike usual dreams, whereby I totally forget the dream after 5 minutes of waking up, I still remember them.
My first dream, I dreamed that I was on a train ride with someone I used to love ... but a certain Female Who Shall Remain Anonymous was sitting in between us, chatting away. My second dream, I dreamed that I was in a themepark ala Genting, and my ... mother died. O_____O
I remember bawling like shit in the dream. And when my phone rung and woke me up from the nightmare, there were tears trickling down my cheeks and I felt exactly the way I felt in the dream. I almost instinctively called up my dad to ask him about mum. SO FREAKY.
So I freshened up and went to DreamMoods for interpretations of my dream.
What I found:
What?! Do I lack a certain quality that my MUM has that I don't? What is it ... Patience? A smaller ego? (Mine is as big as Mount Everest hoho) Intelligence?!
It can't indicate that my mum has no part in my life, because well ... she is my mother. -_- So what exactly do I lack?
OH I know ... she's married and off the market, while I'm not! Is that it? -_-
By the way, I've realized that living "alone" isn't as tragic as I thought it would be. For one, even though my house now looks like a Bachelor's pad with PS2 CDs, magazines and my dog freely running around ... I must say that I've found myself to be incredibly paranoid about dishes and rubbish. I keep on picturing maggots in my kitchen - and voila, I immediately hurry to get the rubbish out, even if it's only a quarter full! And the sink is always clean. =D
My kitchen is cleaner than even when my mother was at home. :D Yay! I won't be such a shitty wife and mother after all.
And oh, the house is NOT more quiet than usual. With occasional friends around, my hall stereo blasting with music 24/7 ... Me, shouting at Fifi for shitting so often. Me, murmering to myself that the tortoises are so useless and smelly. Me, talking on the phone loudly or webcamming on MSN with the mic ......
My house is very lively, indeed. Yay.
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Tuesday, March 13, 2007 || Crappy exams
- I just had the worst English paper ever, I think. I mean, I definitely don't think that I can get an A for this one, since my lecturer gave me crappy assignment marks - no backup!
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. =(
Okay I don't know about the rest who did the same paper as me, but I spotted a lot of trick questions. The thing is, I could spot the tricky bits, but I have no idea if I made the right choice or not. In fact, I took so many risks, I wonder if I'm stupid in doing so. Even my essay was a HUGE risk, 'cause I deliberately wrote something I knew everyone else wouldn't. Just to be different, you know? Arrrrhhh!
Okay. Breath in, breath out. Think blissful thoughts. Hot guys. Yum.
So anyway, it isn't news that I barely study. Whenever an exam is just RIGHT around the corner ... I feel an intense rush in me - a surge of andrenaline - that helps me study more effectively in two hours than I would in two days. It's a feeling I love indulging in.
... But I haven't felt it at all this time around. OMG I think I'm doomed.
Oh yeah, since I have not posted pics of them, ever:
I've always found them to be pretty boring creatures with no purpose in life other than to eat and hide in their shells. But on closer inspection, they're kind of cute.
And oh, they're called Cow and Chicken.
(I'm lying. Truthfully, I just realized my tortoises don't have names! Omg time to brainstorm)
Ever since Jaclyn got back from NS, I'm pretty surprised at the, uh, changes in her.
Her malay has improved ... to the extent of me not being able to tell the difference in slang when she was speaking the same time as another malay girl. Whoa.
I mean, my malay isn't that bad (since 30% of people think i'm malay anyway) but it is practically slang-less, since I don't speak it all the time. But apparently, her best friends in NS were all malays from Kuantan/Sabah, so her melayu is like, best giler babi now. She even accidentally speaks malay to me now. o.O
She used to be uber racist and made racist comments whenever I liked malay guys or guys that aren't chinese. She used to raise her eyebrows whenever I listen to malay or indonesian songs. She used to say that malay-indian-chinese relationships wouldn't really work out because of the differences in language, yada yada.
She now cries every night 'coz she misses singing Indigo's Istimewa with her dorm mates. o_O
I'm all out for interracial relationtionships 'cause I feel like they could actually be really healthy ... so if she suddenly dates/marries someone from NS, I'll be totally happy for her. =D
My conclusion: NS is good. Ask your younger brother/sister to apply for it. Heehee
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Monday, March 12, 2007 || Home Alone.
- I just discovered that my parents are smart people.
Really, really smart.
See, they were planning to go on a Holiday for a week in March ... without me, because I basically wanted to
... And they were SMART enough to pick, of all weeks, my EXAM week to take their much-desired holiday. What the?!
Now I have to clean the whole house, feed the birds, dog and tortoises, wash my own clothes, wash the dishes, cook ...... all while trying to cram in last-minute information for my exams. =(
*BIG sigh* Plus, I think that I may just get my first non-A ever for my English paper. I managed to escape that fate for my EN101, but I don't think it'll happen again for EN102, seeing how screwed up my assignment marks were. (I don't even wanna go there ... *pissed*)
Why lah? =(
Oh, so mummy wrote this out for me to help me "survive on my own".
... As though lah I'm very helpless and could potentially kill the dogs and tortoises by forgetting to feed them. =(
Why don't my parents *ever* trust me? But I'll have to admit, I laughed when mummy handed me the paper.
I'm gonna be alone for a week! Wow. At times like this, I wish that I have a boyfriend who could come over to watch crappy movies and play PS2 with me. I can even totally play 'guy'
games like football/NFL/Need for speed!
Yes yes I'm very love deprived. Yes yes I'm very cuddle deprived. :(
Okay I guess I'll just invite random friends over to crash at my place. And I guess I'm competent enough to not burn down my house. Heehee
P.S. Jaclyn is back from Terengganu! Nice to have my best friend around again.
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007 || V-day, D-day.
- Hello my sweet fellow earthlings.
I am fortunately still very much alive. Extremely busy for the past few days due to the horrible invention of mankind - assignments - but I'm coping. A lot of weight is finally off my shoulders, so there we go - first sem ever that I'm not bitching about assignments and uncapable group members in my blog! =D
Oh yah, tomorrow is Valentines day. I hope you doting lovebirds are happy. *sarcastic*
Don't mind me. Just the usual case of sour grapes. Hehehe
WHY IS IT that every year, during Valentines day, I'm always not dating anyone at the moment - and even worse - am not even interested in anybody?!
It's damn sad okay. I was looking through my phone contact list, trying to figure if there was anybody I wanna sincerely wish Happy Valentines day to and maybe hook up for the day --- and tada! - nobody in mind. =.=''
I haven't liked anyone in months. This sounds super despo and crazy, but I almost need to like someone. I miss the whole butterflies in your stomach ... anticipating phone calls/smses ... shy smiles ...... thing. Without it life is very smooth-sailing but really, it has no spice at all and is just ... blah.
*tears mum's flowers apart*
So, a digression is an absolute must before I end up ranting about my pathetic love life. Pictures!
Monday was super stressful 'cause it was the day of our english play AND also the deadline for another of our assignments. I had like, zero sleep. =.=
I caught John secretly applying on make-up and I quickly took a pic for evidence! LOL
lazy to upload already. =.=
OKAY back to my complaints about Valentines day. =( So I actually had people who asked me out, but I turned everybody down despite having no other plans otherwise.
Coz you see, I just think that I have two options for all Valentines day:
1) Spend it with somebody you really like
2) Spend it with good single friends!
Last year, I spent it with my best friends coz I didn't have anybody in mind. This year, I think I'll just end up doing the same again ... *BIG sigh* O.o
Hehe I guess I'll stop being such a sore loser. Gonna go continue watching Heroes now. (did I mention how much it ROCKS?!?! The hype wasn't for nothing! It's seriously bloody good.)
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY YA'LL! Hope you'll have a good one with your loved one. ;)
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Monday, December 25, 2006 || Not quite Christmas
- *quick post before I rush out*
It's really weird. I can't quite fathom it, but it just doesn't feel like Christmas this year. I don't know why. I just don't *feel* the mood, the bliss, or the joy that I usually feel when it's nearing the 25th of December.
Then I remembered - isn't Christmas all about giving? Damn. My stupid kiamsapness got into the way of things this year, and I didn't buy anybody presents. I mean ... I AM broke, but what excuse is that, when I was planning to go out clubbing or something? =/
So I rushed out of the house. And bought (hopefully) everybody presents. Not expensive ones, but I hope that they'll do.
I dunno ... maybe I'm just hoping that giving my friends presents tomorrow will make Christmas feel like it again - a season of love and giving?
Ohhhh well ... Merry Christmas again! Muakz! Sorry if you're my friend and I didn't get you a present yet. I'll make it up to you a thousandfold next year! :D
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Saturday, December 23, 2006 || Lists - sometimes a necessity
- Things I secretly am dying to do (which aren't so secret anymore)... which, probably won't happen anytime soon, if ever:
- Fulfill my life-long dream: skinny dipping
Which will not happen anytime soon, considering the lack of venues. Me wantsssssss! - Eat a whole tub of Baskin Robbin's cookies and cream ice cream in one night
... Considering the lack of moolah $_$ and my already escalating weight, this ain't gonna happen either. - A hot guy to climb down my chimney on Christmas ... who wants Santa, hello?
Since the chimney and Santa are nonexistent, much less ...... *sighhh* - Grab someone and give him the kiss of his life under the mistletoe
Hey hey, nobody's supposed to deny a kiss UNDER THE MISTLETOE, RIGHT? :D Win-win situation!
Of course, if the dude (or chick, I'm pretty open. LOL JK) pushes me away, it must mean that I'm practically ugly and undesirable to the max. Or that I'm the worst kisser on earth. OMG can't take the risk ...... *shudder*
Man, I can't believe it's Christmas already! And to think I haven't even finished my Christmas shopping yet.
Okay okay, here's what I REALLY want for Christmas:
1) Exam results that are better that what I'm expecting. If I have this, I'll be a good girl. I swear.
2) Him him him him him. Not gonna say who, but I almost can see the wheels turning in my friends heads when they read this ... *sunny grin*
3) A bicycle? Wtf.
4) Hugs! Now you guys know what to get me. :D I love/dig/need/crave/want hugs. Unless you have B.O. LOL
5) I was gonna buy myself a domain for Christmas, but I decided that I'm too lazy and should just stick to blogger. Hohoho. But it's still on my wishlist. =D Coz I'm pretty satisfied at the moment. Don't think I have anything else in mind that I really want. O.o
Mum if you're reading this you might as well buy me a bicycle or a domain. *fake hopeful puppy-dog eyes*
Okay gotta go sleep! Not sure if I'll blog tomorrow or Christmas eve, so a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS to everyone in advance! :D
Have yourself a very berry merry Christmas. May you all have a lovely night full of love and warm kisses under mistletoes. Since I doubt I'll be getting the kisses, you all can tell me about yours. =( Share the joy yo!
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