Sunday, February 25, 2007 || T_____T
- I can't believe it.
I can't.
I ...
I CRIED WHILE WATCHING THE OC. (?!?!?!)
WTF! The OC Season 4's Valentines episode was sooooo sweet that I had tears trickling down my cheeks by the time it ended. =((((((((
I don't really understand leh. I almost *never* cry at all in real life ... even if I fight with my parents, fall for the wrong guy, fight with best friends. But I keep on crying so easily whenever I watch emo movies, read touching stories, or even listen to emo songs. T_____T
In real life, I just keep on feeling that crying makes me weaker than I should be. I mean, considering how many people are starving/dying in the world... my petty problems are not supposed to be tough for me to get through.
You know, one of the reasons why I'm still somewhat happily single and not jumping on the rebound/who-moves-on-faster bandwagon ... the reason why it takes me 4 months to get over a guy I briefly dated and 2 months to actually really be ready to move on (yet I'm still not moving on, hoho) ...
Real love, true love ... the kind of love and emotions that I want to feel ... Is so hard to feel and even harder to find. I will never settle for anything less. The kind of love that makes you want to sacrifice. Makes you want him to be happy - and his happiness, no matter how much it takes out of you - makes you happy.
Everything else that comes in between - dates, flings, whatever - are just there to consume my time. Until I really find it.
And honestly, until then, I really don't care if I'm alone. I don't think I could ever give my heart to anyone just because I can't stand being alone. Even though sometimes I do hate it. Being alone.
