Sunday, February 18, 2007 || OMG what happened!?
- Jaclyn is back for the CNY holidays ... and I just spent the afternoon hanging out with her. O.o
But before that, can you believe it that I went to a lesbian bar yesterday? OMG! Let's just say I'm still 90% straight and 10% bisexual. O___O
I was REALLY looking forward to seeing my best friend again. You have no idea how much I missed her, especially during January. We were always soooo close ... and I mean really close, even for typical best friend standards. Everybody who were our friends knew how close we were, and rarely you'd see one of us without the other.
But when I met her today, it was ... weird. It was like I was meeting a stranger. I had no clue who she was talking about, and she was uninterested in what I've been up to for the past two months. And yeah ... things HAVE changed a lot, for me even. Got closer to new friends, made new hobbies.
Where's my best friend?! Who's this malay Hanna kuantan girl? Who's Ami from Sabah?! Why don't I know all of them? Why am I not interested in knowing?
Gosh ... it's really weird. To know someone SO much, and in just two months, things have changed so much that we don't read each others' minds anymore, nor do we have the same interests or same new friends. She was practically my soulmate. O.o''
I don't believe in LDR ... at least not for someone like me. Or jaclyn. We need to constantly spend time with people in order to be close to them ... when we're adapted to new surroundings and a new life, we easily forget the old, stable one.
Damn weird lah. I think that when she comes back for good in March, we'll probably become super close again ... but, I dunno. How do you blend different friends together?
Eeeek. I still can't get over how weird the afternoon was. Jaclyn was speaking malay and telling me about her malay gang ... O.o while I was acting totally cheerful and telling her about my fucked up life in a much better light.
Ok lah my life is actually pretty fun. I just have spells when I feel so lonely, out of the blue. Maybe its PMS ... And suddenly feeling awkward around your best friend is just, well, wrong. =.=
Happy CNY. I don't feel so happy about it ... but okay. At least got angpao!
