Monday, October 30, 2006 || Random thoughts, filler post
- Random thoughts I am thinking about now:
- The Sims 2 is such a totally cute game. *squeals*
...... Okay fine, I sound like a girly bimbo who purposely installed a game into her computer to make her sound cooler to guys. Ok wtf, that doesn't make sense too.
But anyway, I created a family, a husband and wife named Ezra and Liz Feehily. *HEH* Damn shiok sendiri. So Ezra and Liz are both sort of normal and had a baby boy, and were living really normal and boring lives. 'Till I added some spice into their lives by making Ezra fall for the maid and had an affair with her.
(I know, I know, talk about cursing myself. But I'm not and will never be with Ezra anyway, so can't be bad luck, RIGHT? O.o'')
Which was pretty hard to keep it from Liz. Then I made Liz fall for the made too, and had an affair with her. My Gawd, I am so f*king twisted!
At the end, however, their kid Jeremy grows up and marries the maid. Woo boy, lucky maid. Damn, I should write TV dramas! - Grey's anatomy is good shit. And I think that the black Doctor, Dr. Derek Shepard's rival, is HOT. Which is kinda weird in my case, cause everybody obviously loves Derek Shepard, whoever the actor is. Of course, I was drooling at him too, but I've concluded that I dig Dr. Burgh (is that even how it's spelled?!) more. :D
- People always say that looks don't matter. But most of the time, they're probably lying.
Look at the girls all the guys are swarming around and would do anything for. Are any of them ugly? Heck ...... no.
Then, it just struck me that sometimes, girls do the same too. They go for looks as well, they want someone who can make their knees weak because he has a gorgeous smile, a well-tonned body, or nice eyes.
But as far as what I've experienced, when a guy worships a girl purely because she's hot, it's totally cool ....... but when a girl worships the ground a guy walks on just because she obviously wants him 'cause he's a hottie, she's labeled a superficial bitch. Not only by guys.
Where is the justice in that? O_o - Life is weird. Love is overrated. Relationships are overrated. Flings - or "relationship could-have-beens", are even weirder.
It's just kinda weird, how you spend so much time getting to know someone. And when it's over, when the courting process has failed, or just simply when both parties face the horrible truth that it's not going to work anymore ... everything goes back to the way it was before you got to know each other so well. Or at least, feels that way.
After everything, it just strikes you ... did you just WASTE all the time? All the money - going out, SMSing, and making calls?
Then, I look around, and I see a lot of people I know doing the same. Technically, we're wasting our time. But would we have done anything different, erased those moments you shared that didn't end up in a real relationship? No, I don't think so.
I guess for most of us, the unlucky ones in love, we're just clinging on to the memories and what could have been. Hoping that maybe a fairytale could come true. Somehow, someway.
I feel like I want a new adventure, a new experience. I want to work in a bar and steal people's drinks, I want to travel to a rural area like Keningau to do some mission work, I want to sneak out in the middle of the night with someone I like to drive up Gasing Hill to gaze at the scenary and count stars while talking about my wet dreams.
Hahaha, scrape off the last part.
Unfortunately, my parents won't let me do all of the three. Shucks.
Saturday, October 28, 2006 || ... wet dreams?!
- Okay, I just woke up. Hahaha, sue me for being a lazy ass and waking up at 2. *smug grin*
ANYWAY, I just had the most ... interesting dream ever! Damn weird ok.
I was in some kinda office-ish place, which kinda reminded me of some of the classrooms in college, and I basically was eating there with this guy ....
..... And after that *I* pinned him down. And well, you know laaaa.
OMG is being a horny rapist my secret, subconscious inner desire?! DAMN SWT. Of course, just as things were gonna get even more interesting, I woke up.
Eh I dunno lah, but dreams are so real it's sometimes so weird. I woke up and instantly touched my lips, which almost felt kinda sore. O______O
Weird, right? But man, I should totally have more of these dreams. HAHA
Thursday, October 26, 2006 || My sister
- Since I haven't blogged in a few days, this is gonna be a long post I guess, since I'll be posting on behalf of all my days.
Sis was home for a few days for a holiday, and she returned to Hong Kong today. I'd have to say that this time around, her return was somewhat of a pleasant surprise.
Anyway, we all headed up to Cameron Highlands for a one-day spontaneous trip on Monday. Uh ...... it wasn't too fun 'cause the only reason they wanted to go was to buy PLANTS. They're major plant enthusiasts, cause sis knows the names of practically every plant there is, but I know shit about plants.
I brought my camera, but my sister rolled her eyes when she saw it. "Man, I am SO not a camera person. Don't like taking pics.", she proclaimed.
Being the spineless asswipe that I am whenever I'm around my sis ... "Haha yeah man, same here!", was my loud and very fake reply. Man, I just betrayed the gods of Camwhoring and all my fellow camwhores!
The VERY few pictures:
Mummy and I.
Oh yeah, I was REALLY ECSTATIC to visit Raju's Strawberry farm again. He's just sooo nice! The last time I went there, he gave me free Strawberry milkshakes and strawberries with cream. *big grin*
This time he gave me the strawberries again! :D So nice lah.
May his business prosper, for his good deed. HAHA
*drools*
OH yeah, how could I ever forget the BLISSFUL taste of Cameron's Raju's Strawberry's Farm's ice cream?!
HEAVEN, I tell you!
Speaking of my sister ... I think it's pretty obvious that we aren't close at all. Honestly, we usually feel really awkward and uncomfortable around each other, mainly cause we have a HUGE age gap in between us, and she's barely around enough for us to feel like a family.
But somehow, this time around, I've finally felt like I've gotten to know her a bit better. She's really stubborn, independant, brave, witty and strong. Actually, she REALLY reminds me of myself ...... except that I, unlike her, am not as socialble or as brave as her.
In a sense, she's the person that I've always strived to be, but can't.
Anyhow, it was pretty funny, how she gave me shitloads of advice on my love life and all.
"One thing I think you should know ... the sad reality of life is that there IS not Mr. Right, just one person out there who's meant for you. Sometimes you may think that you only feel what you feel with one person, but the truth is, there are many, countless people out there who are equally compatible with you! It's not Mr. Right anymore. It's Mr. Timing ... if you meet someone you fell for who plans to settle down with you at the same time as you were planning it, that's Mr. Right. Timing!"
Uh ... kinda controversial, but I do get her point. Most of us waste so much time, energy and effort on the past, or people who just don't appreciate us for who we are.
I told her about DickFace, and I'd have to say that she has been the most supportive of "us" thus far. Honestly, if I talked to her and listened to her advice when things were still going on between us, I really think that I'd have done a LOT of things differently, and not make such big deals over his drinking or his unsupportive family.
In fact, my parents HATED the sound of him, though technically they've never really talked yet, 'cept for a glance or two. But sis was so cool, she made him sound like the coolest guy ever, and made my parents feel like judgemental hypocrites. Heehee. Too bad ........... Never mind. =(
Anyway, she was ADAMANT about bringing me out to "see the world", cause I am supposedly too "sheltered, naive and does not know what reality is like". Right. So she dragged me to Zouk with her best KL friends last night.
...... Of course, I couldn't enter. WTF!
So the bunch of us basically chilled in Terrace Bar. I felt REALLY weird at first, to hang out with people who are practically 13 years older than I was, but her friends are so fucking funny. AND damn cool. Though they picked on me a lot, cause I was supposedly so naive and innocent.
*looks at sky*
And ... one of her friends was HOT. When he picked us up, the first thing he said to me was, "you know, I'm DEFINITELY the guy your parents warned you about ...", with a wink.
I swear to God, if my sister wasn't there, I would've said something like "Yeah, and that's why I don't listen to my parents at all." HAH
Well, Mr Good Looking is a HUGE player. And not afraid to admit it. Heck, he is honestly practically Tucker Max! But I could see why so many girls didn't mind being one of his sexual conquests, even though he admits that he's an asshole. Speaking of men who exude magnetism ... he definitely is at the top.
My friend joined us awhile later, and picked me up to send me home a lil' earlier. I drank three glasses of vodkas and a glass of white wine, but I was still sober ... while sis was beet red after one and a half glasses of wine. O__o''
Before my friend and I went off, Mr Good Looking assumed he was DickFace (coz sis and I told him about him ... Man, i must've really liked him since I still talk about him so much), and was like, "Hey you look SO chinese!"
Which shocked my friend, who really IS chinese. You see, DickFace is of a different race, though he has chinese blood. =.=''
Then when we took off, Mr. Good-Looking grinned at us and went, "you know if you guys wanna do anything funny, I have condoms in the car!"
MAN, that was something I would've REALLY blushed at. But I think that I was slightly tipsy cause I laughed like shit instead. O_o
Anyway ... I'm grateful to sis. =)
Things I have in common with my sister: We're both stubborn, can be loners at time, independant, HATES feeling dependant on men, and we're kinda racist (LOL?) cause we both like guys of other races! And preferably older. Sis's boyfriend is white, bloody good-looking and a few years older, LUCKY HER. While as for me, the last three people I was interested in were not chinese, so that theory's proven. *grins*
Things I don't have in common with my sister: Everything else.
Anyway, it's her birthday today. I really wish her all the best. And someday, maybe we'll know each other really well and be really close sisters, for real.
Sunday, October 22, 2006 || college craziness and girl's night out!
- My gawd, do I miss blogging or what! I've been itching to blog ALL WEEK. Though I couldn't, coz last two weeks were basically hell, due to all the assignment deadlines.
But I survived it! And I'm alive. :D Since it's the hols, I vow to blog regularly again and start commenting on blogs again! Though nobody reads me anymore hah hah hah haw.
Anyway, I am supposed to design a magazine for my graphics communication assignment, so I brought my camera to college to take pics of people for my "mag". Though, uh, the result wasn't exactly glamourous. ;)
College friends + Camera = Pointless camwhoring.
I guess that we were all supposed to act cool, though I ended up looking retarded as usual. =.=''
A supposed bollywood movie scene. You know, running around trees and shit. O.o''
John-buddy and I. :D
Jassny-buddy and I. The reason the buddy is in bold is cause there was a time when some people in college thought we were dating and asked me about it. Like wtf, right? Since when do I date college or church people!
Oh yah, my weirdass "principle" came about coz if I ever dated a person from a community of people that I know, if I ever screwed it up or broke up with him, everybody would know. Like when Jaclyn fooled around with this church guy, she caused quite a stir after that. And the stir hasn't been forgotten till today, though it was like what, a year ago?
Of course, unless I wanna be super controversial and purposely give gossip-mongers something to talk about lah. Like, you know, if I dated a chick. Or the pastor/lecturer. HAHA
(Edit: my sis is currently home for a holiday and when she saw that pic, she insisted that that guy HAS to be my boyf, or at least my ex. Wahhhh, wtf! Why?!)
Oh, and I met up with The Gang for dinner yesterday. It was nice catching up with those girls. Especially since I'm severely lacking girl friends whom I can totally trust in college. =(
Suet and I are in the same college, but we hardly talk at all there. 'Cause we hang out with different friends and stuff. I miss bitching about hair, nails and bimbo stuff.
Jaclyn and I don't really pay much attention to girly stuff coz we always end up talking rubbish (though it's substantial rubbish! Er.) while Cally and I talk about boys.
Suet Foong, me and Chrissy. This picture is a definite proof that my cam totally sucks! =( Terpaksa edit its brightness and contrast like shit in photoshop.
Sizzlin' Christine, Ivy, and me!
Haha, us fooling around with sunglasses at Parkson's. The price tags are so funny! =D
Christine and I. Hohoho you can practically see my eye bags THROUGH the sunglasses. That just shows how sleep-deprived I was the whole week with my assignments! Waddafook.
The four of us with bimbo sunglasses. =.=''
OHH yeah, let me tell you something amazing!
Soon I'm gonna be a mat motor! HAHAHA
Okok, you see, my parents are too poor to buy me a car, and will never let me anywhere near my dad's car 'coz my sis was the one who paid for it. Therefore, I basically am still very relient on public transport and all.
BUT my uncle has a motorbike which he doesn't use, and could probably lend it to me. So I thought, hey what the hell, at least I'll be able to get to places near my place without waiting for the stupid bus!
And petrol would be super cheap. :D Yes yes, it's dangerous. Yes, if I drove around with a motorbike, I'd gain a very ... interesting reputation. But who cares?
Hwahahaha, soon you'll see me in the newspapers. As one of those Mat rempits. Wtf.
...... Of course, I'd still need to brainwash my parents a bit more, coz they think that I'll die really soon if I started scooting around to God-knows-where on my bike. =P
P.S. Sis just asked me to go clubbing with her and her friends, but I turned her down. I said I had assignments to do. What. The. Hell. Is. Wrong. With. Me! =( I don't even have assignments anymore. Wtf.
Sunday, October 15, 2006 || I FORGOT MY BLOG!
- Wow.
I've f-king forgotten about my blog, altogether! O_____O Seriously, I didn't even check my blog for the past week!
I guess the thing is that I'm seriously DAMN BUSY. I don't know how other college students update so regularly with consistently entertaining posts and pictures ... how do you guys do it?! Teach me. =(
Anyway, I've been really busy with my assignments (I lied) and you know, studying and all (I lied again). Okay fine, I've just been busy hanging out and doing a LOT of VERY last minute assignments. My classmates and I didn't even sleep at all last Thursday 'coz we were busy rushing our assignment which was due on Friday.
ANNNDDDDD I have TWO assignments due on Tuesday, both of which I haven't even started! Yes, I can hear you sighing at this lazy ass of a chick. :( I know I'm gonna die lah. *wipes tear*
So I'm gonna be super busy doing pointless and some not-so-pointless stuff all college kids do till next week, then I'll have a one week break.
Which, I'll prolly be really busy as well, cause I MIGHT be going to Port Dickson with some friends. :D Is it possible for me to starve myself and make myself bikini-worthy in one week's time?
Jaclyn, who'll be going, is planning to skinny dip in the morning before everybody else wakes up. I FEEL like following her for the heck of it, since it is known to the entire universe that skinny dipping is my childhood dream (HAHAHA), but ...
I want my first skinny dipping experience to be with my future husband or something, NOT jaclyn. Hahaha!
I guess I'm pretty weird, cause I'm REALLY particular about all the important "first times" in my life. Like, you know, my first REAL kiss (don't know what's a real kiss ah, don't ask me to demonstrate ok!), my first all-nighter with a guy, my first slow dance ........ I simply will not let those first times slip away just like that, with some random guy that I'm not in LOVE with.
Which, actually, a few of my so-called relationships ended in less than 3 or 2 months cause I didn't want to let them go further than what I was comfortable with. What I'm comfortable with: holding hands, hugging, and that's IT. Look, if I'm not sure if I'm in love with you or not, don't expect me to make out with you lah. Go fuck a kangaroo lah.
So in a weird sense, this is kind of the reason why I'm not gonna swim around naked with Jaclyn and whatever friend of her she managed to persuade. Of course, that is, unless I'm not drunk. So if you read an article in the newspaper some time next week regarding a naked girl who drowned in P.D ........ you'll know who is it. ;)
OK WISH ME LUCK TO SURVIVE ANOTHER SUPER BUSY WEEK! (wtf)
Sunday, October 08, 2006 || Weird dreams
- I slept at 9 and just woke up. :D Means I slept for what, 15 hours? Wow.
Yesterday was definitely my breaking point. I mean, just like Jac said, everybody has to go through their breaking point at some time or other, especially when they're facing problems like mine. You see, mine isn't even considered a "problem"!
Well ... it's not that bad, I guess. At least I can still see him every other weekend or so. I've learnt that sometimes when you really REALLY like or love someone, you don't need to own the person to love that person. Seeing that person happy is enough. :D
Fuck, damn sacrificial. So unlike me. Anyway, once upon a time, I swore that I won't blog about my love life in my blog, nor will I tell it to all my friends in real life and all that ... I believe in privacy and secrecy in some areas. And to think that this time, I've been blogging about it so much. Gotta stop! O_o
Ohh, I had the weirdest dream ever. I dreamed that I had superhero powers ('cause I was climbing and flying around ala spiderman style) and I saved *him* from another girl. The girl was a chick from my college, which made it weirder. -_-''
So they were talking on a, uh, car ... and I sorta whisked him away. We were climbing around and all those shit, and we ended up in a PET SHOP. We bought a pair of fat brown hamsters, and the smallest cage that barely fit the both of them. Grinning at each other, we both agreed that we're too poor to buy a bigger cage.
Then I woke up.
Saturday, October 07, 2006 || A post you should ignore
- Note: Gonna post up pics of my room tomorrow. =) Sorry for all the mushy emoness.
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I tried, I really did. I tried my best to be your friend, your sister, or whatever it is that lies below the boundaries of lovers ... I tried to be a listening ear whenever you wanted to talk on the phone, or merely a friend to hang out with. That's what's best for us, isn't it?
I even told you about the cute 25 year old, and even that other cute guy I used to like. You feigned interest, but did you really care?
This is gonna make me sound like an emotional wreck, or maybe it's just because of the huge lack of sleep, but when I reached home today, I cried. Goddammit, I miss you and I want you. Only you. When other people try to be nice to me, I feel even shittier, cause I just wish everything they did and said came from you.
The rare phone calls and meet-ups are not enough anymore. I can't do this. I can't see you and not fall for you over and over again. It feels like I'm on a rollercoaster ride everytime I see you - I feel exhilirated, dangerous, and thrilled. I feel so alive everytime I discover something new about you. I die everytime I'm reminded that nothing will ever happen between us anymore. My heart fucking DIES.
You once said you'd always be there for me. I need you now. More than I ever needed anybody. Where are you when I need you the most?
It saddens me that I don't even really want to know the answer to that question.
P.S I cried when I was listening to this song just now. Ah damn. Emoness. Time to sleep it off ...
Go download the song from that page! Damn sad. Or at least to me, since it hit a nerve for me.
Thursday, October 05, 2006 || Irresponsible parents!
- Today, I was having lunch, and I noticed this really cute kid running around. She was really young - about 3 or 4, I'm guessing, and she was running around alone. Damn cute kid, she was really tiny and had long curly hair. :D
'Okay, maybe her parents are eating at a table somewhere near us ...', I thought to myself. So I continued eating my lunch ... But after like, 10 minutes, she was STILL running around. =.= She was practically trotting around to everybody's tables and looking at them eat their food and all.
Eh, this can't be right! Where're her parents? She wandered out of the restaurant and was wandering around the shops nearby ALONE. What a sight! The worst thing was, nobody really paid much attention to her, except for a curious glance or so.
So 'cause I was worried, I finally told my friend to wait a bit while I followed her around just in case her parents really were NOT around. Finally, I decided that there was no way that her mum was around, or she'd definitely not let her 3 year old daughter run around like this. What mother in her right mind would do THAT?
I talked to the cute girl and carried her back to the restaurant. "Where's mama?", I asked her. She dubiously raised both her hands into the air in an "I don't know" gesture. DAMN CUTE, I TELL YOU!
So I put her on my lap while my friend and I cooed and baby-talked her for about 10 minutes 'till her mother finally arrived, looking for her. -____-
When the mother took the baby girl from me, I almost scolded her for being such an irresponsible parent. LOOK, what if I was a pimp mama or what if it was some kinda pedo kidnapper who found her, not me? If you wanna have a baby, AT LEAST take your responsibilities seriously and not leave your kid running around for twenty minutes, can?
I should've called child support or the police ok! *geram* But well, I bit my tongue and glared at her with a half-smile.
When she carried the baby girl into her arms and walked out of the restaurant, the kid waved and grinned a totally adorable toothy grin at me. AWWWWWWW so cute.
But as for her mum ....... I just REALLY hope that it was a once-in-a-lifetime kinda thing. Poor kid.
Watching them walk off, I swore that one day, I am gonna be a GOOD mum. *grrrrrr*
Wednesday, October 04, 2006 || Projek minggu kesihatan
- My dad's supposedly expensive watch and mum's handphone are missing. Well, they're fully convinced that the construction workers stole it, since it's TOO coincidential and both their stuffs were in the hall. But it's not like me to jump to conclusions, so ......
I just wish that they'd stop fighting. -_-'' I've gotta say that my parents are the most argumentative people I know. They fight over everything and nothing. The worst is - my dad always picks fights with me over nothing as well, though nowadays he's too busy with our humble apartment and my mum to bother me too much.
They should be more like me. I'm hot tempered like hell and I'd fuck you up if you PURPOSELY pissed me off for no reason, but most of the time, I chill. :D
OH yes, the main reason for today's post. Okay, since Camerons, I haven't been exercising at all and I've been eating like a pig. I don't watch my diet, per se. So I've put on a few pounds - something I'm not exactly screaming with joy over.
AND
I barely slept for more than 3 hours per day during the holidays, I swear. Since I was homeless, I had trouble sleeping in other people's beds. And yesterday, I tried to adjust my sleeping schedule - to find that I can't. I still rolled around in my bed while SMSing till like, five. It means that I've been lacking sleep like shit for, heck, two weeks.
Can someone die from a severe lack of sleep? O_o I feel like a permanent piece of shit lately ... is that a symptom?!
SO, I've decided to launch a minggu kesihatan (health week!) to nurse myself back to er ... feeling like a normal, functioning human being with a healthy weight ratio again. :D
1) I'm gonna stay away from the internet as much as I can. Time to start sleeping early and stop browsing blogs and MSNing at night.
2) Exercise! I don't wanna die of obesity or a heart attack, or whatever it is that being fat causes. And you know, if I maintain my weight, I get to nick off free skirts and jeans from Jaclyn when she buys shit that she can't fit in. HAHA
3) SLEEP EARLY!
4) This is kinda impossible ... but I'm gonna try to stop eating McDs. I swear I can! Okok, I DO realize that McD is, like, my favourite hang-out place ever ..... but well. Ok to make things easier for myself, I'll just stay away from carbs. :D And from eating supper!
5) Er ... drink more water? Wtf.
... okay, I just realized that this is kinda pointless. I mean, why make it a WEEK? I should make it a lifestyle, right? HAH yeah right.
Gonna go TRY to sleep now. If all goes well, I'm gonna have an extremely busy and fulfilling day ahead of me tomorrow. ;) If it doesn't go well ... I'll go find Cally and beremo with her. Hahaha. By the way, my room is now so pretty!
....... And totally NOT me.
Monday, October 02, 2006 || My alcohol allergy
- Woe is me.
.... I'm allergic to alcohol. Yesterday, I was at a birthday party and I sort of drank a bit too much. I was slightly tipsy (but not drunk okthxbye) and all, but I was generally still quite sober. But when I came home, I started itching all over.
ALL OVER, I tell you! =( Which is why I'm stuck at home today, cause if I didn't know better, I'd have thought that I somehow had a freaky one night stand somewhere because of how red my body is. -__-''
OMG don't tell me I'll never get to drink again! I'm not an alcoholic or anything, but I was beginning to see a bright future ahead of me as one, ok! Haha I'm a kaki botol wannabe. Wth.
Anyway, happy birthday, Gavan.
Seeeee, I'm so dark, it's no wonder that people think I'm malay. :D OHMIGOSHwtf, I'm as dark as John in this pic. Cool!
Oh yah, the party's dress code was 70s ... though obviously, I managed to look like some confused goth witch-wannabe instead. I wanted to wear a short skirt, but Jac told me it was "inappropriate". -_-
Camho-ing in the toilet:
Haha speaking of Horny Jac, she drank like 6 or 7 glasses of wine and spiked fruit punch, and she got DRUNK.
In her state of total drunkenness, she:
1) Danced a "solo" dance on the dance floor when nobody else was there. Shaking her booty and all that.
2) Grabbed the birthday boy and danced a slow dance with him. (she denies doing it)
3) Told Gavan's younger brother that she "really likes him" but too bad he's "too young".
4) Told a chick that she really likes her. WTF!
5) Tried to get a cute event manager dude's number, but all she got was a glass of warm water from him. HAHA, awww!
If I wasn't slightly tipsy myself, I would've denied being her friend. AHAHA.
Oh yeah, as it turned out, the hottest guy from Jaclyn's church was one of the event manager people Gavan hired. Chris, Ivy, Suet, Jac and I all agree that he is bloody good-looking. Jaclyn was obviously thrilled with the coincidence. *looks at sky*
Okay, this really cute event manager dude chatted with me when I was grabbing some more punch, and he asked me for my number. O_o (Thanks, Jaclyn, for telling everyone I asked him for his number. -.-'' When you failed, bwahaha!)
Look, whether I was tipsy or not (a bit?), it is HIGHLY UNlike me to not talk to a cute guy if he approaches me first. I mean, c'mon! What's the point of being single if you can't have a nice chat with cute people who hit on you? Plus, he spoke good english. Damn rare to have a cute guy speak good english. O.o''
Actually, one of the reasons I drank so much was 'cause I received a SMS from *him* just as I was eating dinner. =( Dickface. I have no idea what is wrong with him for ALWAYS pushing me away and pulling me back again.
I kinda think that he just needs somebody who genuinely cares for him to be there. But I'm quite bored of his stupid games by now....... What happens when I don't wanna care anymore?
I swear, my life is like some weird TVB drama, lately.
You know what's more important? Finding a cure for my allergy to alcohol. *scratches self*
