Thursday, May 18, 2006 || My indecisiveness striking me where it hurts the most
- HELLO world!
I've been working for the past three days cause my EX boss called me up and said that on my last week's work, I left out something.
...... Something she didn't even instruct me to do. *coughs*
I REALLY didn't wanna do it cause I didn't think it was my fault, and I didn't feel like working the one last week before I enter the lovely hectic college world ....... but in the end, I felt kinda bad for her and spent three days "filling in where I supposedly left out".
That's MY weakness, ya'll. I freaking think from everybody's point of view all the time. That's why I try to be polite to telemarketers and shit ... cause I know that if I was the one working the job, I'd be pissed if everybody treated me like a disease.
But she'd better pay me. No way I'm gonna overlook cash, nuh uh. *innocent smile*
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Ok, I've been ranting on and on about my future college for so long now, and now let me tell you how indecisive I am.
First, I was really keen on UCSI, cause it's pretty affordable and I liked the helpful guidance counsellors. Then I realized Cheras is way too far and transport'd be a bitch.
Then, I was really keen on TAR, cause it's pretty affordable and
I ruled out Taylors, HELP and LKW (even though I was really keen on 'em) cause they're basically too expensive. Ah, woe is me.
Now, this sorta thing is VERY NEW to me. Cause I'm pretty impulsive and I make really quick decisions and just assume that everything's gonna be fine and merry.
But I'm definitely freaking out when it comes to picking the right college. I am an idiotic person, you know? If I end up in a college I totally hate ..... I'll just end up skipping classes again. O_o
So after majorly pondering it over, Suet Foong seemed to be doing pretty well in Life college (please don't tell me you've never heard of it. I know you've never.) ... and I thought, Hey, why not eh?
It's damn near and affordable as well.
But sweet news aside, the founders of the college are supposedly Christian, so I heard that about 80% of the students are Christian kids.
Despite being a Christian myself ... I have a pretty big phobia towards Christian communities. I always feel like I have to be on my best behavior around them. No swearing, no all-black "skimpy" clothes, no makeup .......
Which just isn't me. Haha.
In youth camp, I was on the best behaviour I could muster up, despite the occasional cursing and shit .......
And I came home to find two dipshits adding me in MSN and telling me that my friends and I were the "witches of the camp".
Which is why I was so paranoid about life college. I don't really wanna change myself just for the sake of adapting, yea?
And after skimming through my closet, and from what Suet Foong told me, I've realized that 60% of my clothes can't be worn. Skirts inclusive. Whoop-dee doo dah. o_O
I'm supposed to register tomorrow, and I'm still freaking out. I know, I should kill myself for being so indecisive. Why can't I make a decision and stick through it? =(
... Still, I can't seem to resist the challenge. Would I come out friendless and become the blacksheep of the college, a social reject that nobody wants to talk to because she uses 'fuck' everytime she's shocked?
Or would I come out unscathed and still the same old happy-go-lucky me?
I can't wait to find out. But yet, I AM still rather scared. =.=
