Friday, December 09, 2005 || Job hunt: Day two. And of KCYap's suicide and John Lennon's death anniversary.
- Listening to: John Lennon - Imagine
Mood: Hyper
Ahh, today went MUCH more better than yesterday. Instead of attempting to find jobs at Megamall, which was HUGE (and most of the vacancies were meant for GUYS ... *hint hint*) and unfriendly, I went to OUG instead. -_- And since I'm there a lot, I do know people around that area.
Besides, I was in a slightly more ... upbeat mood today. :D
And attempted to be more crappy than usual ... For once, I was talkative as hell during interviews. Though I feel DAMN lame for crapping ... at least it's better than being quiet?
Potential employer: So do you have any work experience?
Potential employee (Me -_-): *thinks quickly* ... ERM, well, I worked at this FABULOUS handphone shop in Cheras before.
Potential employer: Isn't Cheras very far from here? Why'd you work there?
Me: (thinks: SHIT! Blasted!) Ah ... You see, my family moved here this year. I used to live at Cheras. *smiles widely* I was an, uh, sales assistant at this handphone shop in Leisure mall.
Potential employer: *raises eyebrows* Ohh okay.
And for some REALLY weird reason, this employer asked me what horoscope I was (As in ... Year of dragon, horse bla bla). And because my cantonese is not THAT good, I answered .......
I'm a virgin.
Without realizing it!!!!!!
The dude was like, 'HUH?!?!?!?!' ...... until I quickly discovered my mistake and blurted "OH! Nono! Year of the dragon ... Hahahaha, dragon girl, I am."
SIGH. -_- I feel like strangling myself.
And oh yeah, I doubt that I'll ever be hired. 'Cause the thing is, most of the shops wanted workers that'd be able to start THIS month ... And I can only start work in January. :( I am attending a National Youth Camp from the 26th to the 30th, and I paid for it already. =( One fella asked me WHY I was looking for jobs this early, when I could only start work in January, and I answered:
"OH .. Well ... You know me (actually, he doesn't -_-), I like planning out things in advance! ........"
To which he replied ... "Erm ... Good attitude ......"
Sigh. How embarrassing. I seriously should not try to speak in cantonese that much, cause I sound majorly lame when I use it. -_-
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As soon as I came online, Swifty messaged me on MSN and told me that KC Yap commited suicide. THIS is what happens when you stop reading other blogs and slowly disconnect from the blogosphere: You don't know the major happenings anymore. =(
Anyway, how true is that? Assuming that he really has passed on ... I'd like to express deepest condolences and regret to him. I've chatted with him maybe once or twice on MSN, and he seemed like an okay person. =/
... But nothing's confirmed yet, and I shan't jump to conclusions. I hope he's alright, though.
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On the 8th of December of the memorable year of 1980, the world lost an amazing songwriter and talented artiste. Yes, John Lennon. My idol.
I am a day late, but my respect for John Lennon (and all members of The Beatles) will never waver. In fact, I still think that they are the best band to ever grace planet earth, and if you knew me personally, you'd know that I'm a BIG fan of them.
Personally, I think that John Lennon's Imagine is probably one of the best songs that was ever written. Imagine a world without love, friendship and colors. Imagine a world without dreams, a world without rainbows. Imagine if your family, or your friends never existed at all ... Would you still be complaining about all the trivial inconveniences that occur in your life today?
Sometimes, we are so engrossed by all the scars in Life ... Forgetting the fact that what lies within these scars bears the most meaning of alll. The heartaches, the pain and the hurt mold us into the person that we are today ... Each scar in life has a tale of its own. A tale weaved and sculpted with our own hands. Perhaps the pain is all worth it. For without pain, there can never be pleasure.
Imagine a world without 'you'. To live a life so meaningless that the people around me'd be able to easily wipe away their memories of me ... is really scary to me. Just like any other person --- I am scarred. I have bruised. I know what loneliness and pain is like.
But I'll still continue dreaming, and I'll continue living.
And to John Lennon, whose song somewhat contributed to my outlook on life today ... Rest in peace. The world will never forget you. =(
