Jaclyn: Oh God, no wonder you always look like a panda. Make sure you don't start taking sleeping pills, or you'll be addicted to them, like how I'm addicted to aspirin.

I actually went to the doctor's a few weeks ago, and he told me that I have a mild (note: mild) case of insomnia and if I continue to ignore it, I may get chronic insomnia one day. Which is probably fatal, I suppose, cause I can't imagine the human brain functioning without any rest at all. And as for me, I've been having trouble sleeping since I was fifteen. (I actually had to take sleeping pills in order to have sufficient sleep for my PMR, can you believe it?) And I guess it somewhat started when I first got the internet and got hooked...

I remember staying up the whole night, along with Darien, Lilynn and Julia, playing Legends almost every night. (Come to think of it, it was probably the best online game I ever played ... so if anyone has ever played Legends, otherwise known as MYDA, add me on MSN so we can reminisce together, k? ^^) And after that, it was the discovery of photoshop, gunbound, Maple Story and the PS2 that kept me piously awake every night till the wee hours of the morning. >.<>

Jaclyn asked me: How the hell do you just lie on your bed for so many hours without sleeping?? And I guess I don't really know as well. I mean, I basically just lie on my bed, twisting and turning, and voila, it's suddenly dawn. Time flies, huh ... and I also happen to have a very insatiable imagination, and if I could remember clearly the oddities that occur in my daydreams, I'd have a field day writing it down. T_T

Sigh. You never know what's precious until it's gone ... and how I long to sleep at 12 and wake up at 11, like all my friends do. I used to have the stamina to live normally, despite my sleeping disorder, like any other teenager, but I think I'm really starting to break down. I even almost fell asleep during my add maths paper the other day. I'm so afraid that I'll be like my mum someday - unable to sleep without the aid of sleeping pills, with all the energy sapped out of your body and looking like a living skeleton. She has chronic insomnia, I think... and trust me, even though it doesn't seem to be fatal, it ain't pretty either.

I'm sorry for the boring post. I'm only blogging because (here I go again ~) I can't sleep. Hehehe. And I'm at least hoping that by typing this useless, boring post about my ongoing sleeping disorder, I can pressure my body into sleeping soundly. I've made a pact, though --- I'm determined to get well and healthy, like I used to be, by November. Why November, you ask? Because it'll be the horrible month of my SPM examinations.

Sleepless night(s) = 9G(s)

On a lighter note, I have concluded that Malaysian Idol 2 Sucks. Seriously. I hardly believe that there is not even one outstandingly talented singer in the whole of our beautiful country. And I honestly think that Daniel will win ... Gosh, such tragedy. That dude sounds like my cousin sister ... sigh. For the sake of Malaysia, I will pray and pray and pray that Nita or Farah will win. :D And since I'm almost finished with The OC, can anyone recommend me anything good to watch? Call me the Addict. I watch everything from korean serials to daytime soap opera.

Cally wants to celebrate her birthday with Jaclyn and I tomorrow, since we're her best friends, even though it's at least two weeks before the actual date. O_o Anyway, we'll be eating steamboat and BBQ! *drools* And hopefully I'll be able to get some pictures and dedicate a post to Cally dearest.

The saddest thing ever is, after typing out such a senseless post, I'm still not sleepy.