Friday, November 03, 2006 || A bit of narcissism again <3
- I've been trying to blog for the past two hours, but blogger is kinda screwed up.
Anyway, I'm currently waiting for my Grey's Anatomy season 2 episodes to finish downloading. I'm such a dumbass, I downloaded 5 episodes of FRENCH ones a few days ago. O_o''
Okay, so my magazine assignment photoshoot was okay, though I dunno what struck me to offer *myself* as one of the posers for the cover. I really wanted my college mate Sam Oh to be on the cover, 'coz he's damn photogenic, but I was in too much of a hurry. Today's the deadline, and I only started my magazine yesterday night.
Maybe that's why it didn't turn out great. =(
Anyway, since we already took super-poser pictures, I just photoshopped some of them for fun. I almost lost ALL of my n00b photoshop skills, since I didn't change my layout since ..... practically forever. Must change soon! Back to black again, this time. :D
These are UNphotoshopped pictures:
IGNORE FAT TUMMY!!!!!!!!! OK THX BYE.
A clear case of gender confusion. LOL
Actually, I didn't have to purposely post up unphotoshopped pics, coz I know it's pointless ... but I was just finding an excuse to post up those pics cause I think they're funny. Hahaha.
Pointless, somewhat narcissistic, poser pics:
(So-called "models": Josh Lim, Andrew Ee, Eliza Lee)
And yessss, the guys had makeup. LOL. Done by me. Not that I forced them into it, if ya know what I mean ... ;)
Ok, my so-called mag design for my assignment:
This is the cover. I REALLY wanted it to be in black with an edgy, grungy, gritty feel to it. But since it was supposed to be a celebrity gossip mag, we ended up choosing a lighter color scheme ..... and it kinda ended up looking like some kinda TeenGirl magazine instead, wtf! =/
I'm not happy with it 'cause I think that I could've done a lot better if I wasn't so lazy and procrastinated so much. But ahhhhh ... I should cut myself some slack! :D
Anyway, when we handed up our assignment to our head of course, Andrew jokingly told her that it was the proposal for our college's newsletter, and she fell for it and was totally psyched.
She said that she has been waiting forever for someone to take an initiative to produce and publish a college newsletter, but nobody wants to do it, since my college is SO small and SO new. Anddd when I offered to, she was damn ecstatic and happy about it. O_o
"My day was so bad and it was raining, now that you've said that I feel da sunshine!" ... were her exact words. O.o''
Ok, the thing is, I was REALLY serious about trying to gather a team and come up with a proposal for a college newsletter. It's the kinda thing I've always been dying to do, but I was too bloody lazy in school to ever accomplish that. And now that nobody's willing to take up the baton in my college ... why can't I at least try now, right?
Not to mention, if I get editor or whatever, it would look good on my resume. And the way *I* look at it, since my col is still new, if I started the newsletter and IF everything turns out okay and the newsletter "legacy" continues on ... isn't it a bit like creating history for my college? Setting the pathway for the new kids who are gonna come in, and replace our editorial team when we leave?
Okok, not that noble lah, but you get what I mean. :D But then, I highly doubt that anyone would be fully committed or interested in helping me out. =( And where am I gonna get the funds, ideas and manpower? I can't do everything myself, right? *BIG sigh*
I am willing to put in my 101%. This is fucking big for me. If I could pull *this* off, the feeling of satisfaction I'd get would bypass anything I would ever feel from some random guy, and I would achieve something I always were (and always will be) very interested in. So if I don't turn out to be a journalist, at least I've had a small taste of journalism in college! :D
Actually, I guess it's pretty obvious that I've already made up my mind, right? :P Weighing all the pros and cons ... I guess it's true that maybe the cons and risks are a lil' too high for me to handle.
But I still want to try. That's life. If I fall and make mistakes, the lesson I'd learnt from there would bypass anything I could ever learn from a textbook or a longass lecture.
... *slaps self* Tell me that I'm merely dreaming. Tell me that I can't be a dreamer. =( Tell me that it won't work, dammit, or I'm in for a LOT of shit and obstacles.
